希望不是信心

希望不是信心 信心是现在
Faith is now
信由人+ 言主成

也就是我们要宣告

Faith is now and is made up of human plus our speech. We have to confess/pronouce out our faith.. All this I learn during the Mandarin service on Sunday. Pastor Mark is the Pastor and I really like his preaching, a faithful man of God so humble. .

my guiding verse

This shall be guidling verse for this timing now... In a time of adversity, someone share with me yesterday. I totally can't remember this verse so I did a search.. I can't help but to say this applies now.  Since last week till now, it just further confirms some stuff. well well let the lord lead me and guide me to be wise like the snakes and harmless as the doves.. Amen
Matthew 10:16 NIV



I am sending you out like sheep among wolves. Therefore be as shrewd as snakes and as innocent as doves.

Light a candle

Lord, light a candle in my heart and show me the way out of this darkness.
Make it crystal clear so that I know what are the intentions, if its good or bad.
Give me the wisdom to make a decision that is according to your will, lord.
Give me the peace at heart
No weapsons form against me shall prosper, bad vibes are out of the way!

All this shall be done in the name of Jesus, Amen.

saying a little prayer so that I will no longer be confused.  I should be counting my blessings I know but really now it just make me a little confuse.

Sense of fear

For some reason, I starting to feel a little fear, well maybe its to due to my anxiety over the outcome of some events that I am awaiting. Anyway won't share here until I get the confirmation in time to come. But I starting to feel anxious and also in a way abit undecisiveness, its like at a junction and I hestiating don't know to turn left, right, go straight, or u turn.

Anyway I am telling myself, relax, some decisions can only be made after I go through one stage. Its just weird how human beings love to jump instead of walking properly. And human beings when given choice, also start to become indecisive cos they do not know what is best for them, and start to worry. If there is only choice, they grumble too, because they don't get to choose.

At this point, fear sets in and this is the best time for the devil to set in. Pure coincidentance? Today's daily devotional is the following phrase.

1 Peter 5:8


Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil walks about like a roaring lion, seeking whom he may devour.

I just need ot learn to rest in the lord and be reminded that I got nothing ot fear for HIS blood has coverd me . I call upon the lord to bless me and cover me from the crown of my head to the soles of my feet, take away my anxiety, all infirmities, all worries and  set my heart at rest and at peace. Amen.

打造神國企業~楊肅斌

When Aaron my agent send me this, I didn't click on it, until today. Oh mine, i just have to send it to everyone because it deeply blessed and touch. The beginning strike a chord in me. He took 14 years to tell his parents, I took a year but mum never accept it. Kind of denial I woudl say, so now I simply just ignore and hide and never tell her I am still attending church.

Don't ask me how I go to church these 6 years, occasinarily when she ask , I just have to hide or somehow brush it off. secret Christian I am..

Someday my parents would be saved, in fact this is one of my 3 wishes this year :) Amen.... they would be saved.


Tan Sri Francis Yeo love and trust for the lord also deeply touch me, see how he love his wife, see how strong he is when his wife passed away, a loving father he is, his giving back to society. All these are things that we should learn from him. All glory to the lord..


A quote from him, we always say Bright idea Bright idea. Yes HE is the light of the world, therfore bright idea. :)
Watch it, you will be blessed I promise.

Trust

Trust in the lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. Proverbs 3:5.....

不知道从什么时候开始,变得特别会流泪。今早，看到妈抽血时，一瞬间好不难过，好自责，好心痛，觉得没把妈照顾好。泪在眼眶里打滚。

直到上洗手间时，才觉悟：相信主，把一切交给祂。没事的。

Thought of the day

When the wave came in, Tin Tin got scared and try to run away, He screamed," I want to go back, I want to go back." Its pretty funny. Both my sis and I held him tightly and let him float telling him , its allright. Actually he had ventrued out from 0.6M to 0.9M and he's wearing a life jacket so he can float but when the waves came in, he got swept and he got scared.

We held him tightly trying to calm him down and reassure him its safe. When the waves died down, he realise actualy he can float and he then dare to venture out and trying 1.2M this time round. Now  he doesn't want to get out of water.

Alot of times, due to the unknown, we got scared and tried to run away from the fear that aroses from our heart. We do not dare to face this unknown. Only when we know we are safe, would we dare to face it. But very often its we ouselves that we hinder from stepping out the first step.

Jesus says:

Deuteronomy 31:6


Be strong and of good courage, do not fear nor be afraid of them; for the LORD your God, He is the One who goes with you. He will not leave you nor forsake you.

John 14:27


Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.

Hmm

Hmm my sixth sense says that someone is lieing to me perhaps.. well anyway it doesn't matter now. I have did what I should and always wanted to do..   再多说也没用,也没什么好后悔的。该做的都已做了。The lord knows my heart and will guide me through..

Thank you lord

Thank you lord. Today I am happy, finally seeing result. A restful increase manifestation. This is just the beginning :)

hmm I do wish you are here to share my joy though. Well I should get you out of my mind instead.

Give thanks

Give thanks ... Thank you lord I receive

I decided

How many times have I decided on this and never really practise it. Does this happen to you? how many times have you decide on some matters but never have the heart to do it or just dont have the discipline eg new year resolution.

Today at this moemnt I made the decision again. something which I never ever kept. Now I shall keep to my promise. A new door will open, all I have to do is to stick to this decision.

Letting go is never easy but with the Lord it will be possible. Dear Lord, you know your daughter's desire and will make it possible cos everything has been finished and done at the cross. Give me the wisdom to handle this. I declare I have the victory cos you already have given me and I have received.

当下

J 姐:你又恢复以前的开朗了。
我：学会看开，放下。
J姐：往往当下很难。
我：的确，但时间会治疗一切，一定行的。

祝福你J姐，为你祈祷着。你是勇敢的。能体会你的心情，有时侯跟你一样会坠入那深渊但这是生活有时无可避免的。只要学会如何面对，及时出来就好了。我也在学习。


<< Proverbs 3:5 >>






New American Standard Bible (©1995)

Trust in the LORD with all your heart And do not lean on your own understanding.

King James Bible

Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding.



American King James Version

Trust in the LORD with all your heart; and lean not to your own understanding.



American Standard Version

Trust in Jehovah with all thy heart, And lean not upon thine own understanding:



Douay-Rheims Bible

Have confidence in the Lord with all thy heart, and lean not upon thy own prudence.



Darby Bible Translation

Confide in Jehovah with all thy heart, and lean not unto thine own intelligence;



English Revised Version

Trust in the LORD with all thine heart, and lean not upon thine own understanding:



Webster's Bible Translation

Trust in the LORD with all thy heart; and lean not to thy own understanding.



World English Bible

Trust in Yahweh with all your heart, and don't lean on your own understanding.



Young's Literal Translation

Trust unto Jehovah with all thy heart, And unto thine own understanding lean not.



משלי 3:5 Hebrew OT: Westminster Leningrad Codex

בְּטַ֣ח אֶל־יְ֭הוָה בְּכָל־לִבֶּ֑ךָ וְאֶל־בִּֽ֝ינָתְךָ֗ אַל־תִּשָּׁעֵֽן׃



משלי 3:5 Hebrew OT: WLC (Consonants Only)

בטח אל־יהוה בכל־לבך ואל־בינתך אל־תשען׃



משלי 3:5 Hebrew OT: WLC (Consonants & Vowels)

בְּטַח אֶל־יְהוָה בְּכָל־לִבֶּךָ וְאֶל־בִּינָתְךָ אַל־תִּשָּׁעֵן׃



משלי 3:5 Hebrew Bible

בטח אל יהוה בכל לבך ואל בינתך אל תשען׃



Apocalypsis 22:21 Latin: Biblia Sacra Vulgata

habe fiduciam in Domino ex toto corde tuo et ne innitaris prudentiae tuae



Proverbios 3:5 Spanish: La Biblia de las Américas (©1997)

Confía en el SEÑOR con todo tu corazón, y no te apoyes en tu propio entendimiento.



Proverbios 3:5 Spanish: La Nueva Biblia de los Hispanos (©2005)

Confía en el SEÑOR con todo tu corazón, Y no te apoyes en tu propio entendimiento.



Proverbios 3:5 Spanish: Reina Valera (1909)

Fíate de Jehová de todo tu corazón, Y no estribes en tu prudencia.



Proverbios 3:5 Spanish: Sagradas Escrituras (1569)

Fíate del SEÑOR de todo tu corazón, y no estribes en tu propia prudencia.



Proverbios 3:5 Spanish: Modern

Confía en Jehovah con todo tu corazón, y no te apoyes en tu propia inteligencia.



Proverbes 3:5 French: Louis Segond (1910)

Confie-toi en l'Eternel de tout ton coeur, Et ne t'appuie pas sur ta sagesse;



Proverbes 3:5 French: Darby

Confie-toi de tout ton coeur à l'Éternel, et ne t'appuie pas sur ton intelligence;



Proverbes 3:5 French: Martin (1744)

Confie-toi de tout ton cœur en l'Eternel, et ne t'appuie point sur ta prudence.



Proverbes 3:5 French: Ostervald (1744)

Confie-toi en l'Éternel de tout ton cœur, et ne t'appuie point sur ta prudence.



Sprueche 3:5 German: Luther (1912)

Verlaß dich auf den HERRN von ganzem Herzen und verlaß dich nicht auf deinen Verstand;



Sprueche 3:5 German: Luther (1545)

Verlaß dich auf den HERRN von ganzem Herzen und verlaß dich nicht auf deinen Verstand;



Sprueche 3:5 German: Elberfelder (1871)

Vertraue auf Jehova mit deinem ganzen Herzen, und stütze dich nicht auf deinen Verstand.



箴 言 3:5 Chinese Bible: Union (Traditional)

你 要 專 心 仰 賴 耶 和 華 ， 不 可 倚 靠 自 己 的 聰 明 ，






箴 言 3:5-6
你要一心仰赖耶和华，不可倚靠自己的聪明

在你一切所行的路上，都要承認他，他必使你的路徑平坦正直。

Amen

Finally I declare

If not for Roland's encouragment I probably would notshare during last sat's gathering.

Glory to the lord that i declare I am out of depression. Why did I sunk into depression, I didnt even realise I was in until I talk to J jie and confirm it.
It all began in June, when I clarified with XX on some of her decisions. I am shocked by her answers and the hurting thing is she denied askingme to do ANZ + forecast together. Know what she did. She hired someone internal with a grade higer to handle ANZ and then promtoed K to do forecast.

To add to the would further, she furtheradded to say I am not good, lousy. These words are like blades cutting deep into my heart and there it is. the damage was done.I feel so condemn.  And in Jul/Aug during evauation she start to pinpoint a point which is up till now I feel is a makeup story by her. She can't even pinpoint the exact file and mind you I take pride in my work . 

After all these hurtful stuff I feel so  condemned and lousy and really am washing my face with tears espcially during Sunday church. Tears would just roll down nonstop... All thanks to joyce meyer. She had a guest speaker Pastor Phil princle and while listening. Bling.. Suddenly I see the light in that instant. learning to let go.

It was all abt the wounded spirit and finaly i understtood why I was so upset. Its the bleach of trust by XX

Now I have learn to let go.

By the way someone did tell me K has backstabbed me to climb up, probly she did. But I do not care now really, I still treat her with grace.  Just the other day I bought her favourite juice, wrote a note to cheer her up and left it on her desk.

U know it was a blessing in disguise that I did not get promoted. Why? Becasue I see K is so stressful now all thanks to political moves and decisions by XX. Did I mention that XX is moving to another dept.  Did the lord remove a mountain?  Anywa what I want to say is now I do not miss care grp like in the past cos I do not have to worry about forecast. tomrowo I can go cg and sleep well while K has to stay back to consolidate. Finally my rest is here. :)
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The lord know what is best for me and where I should go. I know I have accomplish my goal in this team, mision accomplished. These are goals which I can't in my performance evaualtion but is something that I can write and speak to the Lord about it.  Helping Preggy to reconcile bac with the rest of the collegues, trianing her to pick up the work stuff.  Sounds like I am abit dumb hor. but really I love the peace.


Rest in the lord and wait patiently for him...Psalm 37:7  next time i shall share what my revelations is about this phrase.

Thanks Neigbour

I can't help but to tear the moment I saw the mail.

Thanks for helping me
Thanks for encouraging me with the sms
Thanks for the constant reminders of our lord
Thanks for all the prayers
Thanks for keeping me in your family prayer list
Thanks for the wonderful time that we work together
Thanks for the prayer time that we have together
Thanks for showing me how good our lord in, I really see the lord's hand working on you.

I am definitely going to miss you as my neighbour in office. Will miss the times that we work together. this is a period whereby no duplication and nothing can ever replace it. Its what I would call nobody will ever understand why.

I must confess and say I am sorry for I use to dislike you for making my life miserable and making me tear in the past . haha I know you are really so shocked when I told you the other day... But really I saw lord changing you into a gracious lady and how he promoted you .. :)  Am turely happy for ya...

I now know  why i didn't leave 2 years ago...........cos the lord wants me to see His work. Praise the lord. Thanks Neighbour...............

Fluffy

This is Fluffy the cat. A couple of months ago, as I walked towards the lift one night, I saw her walking towards me from the next block. How pretty she is.. a lovely cat.. I sayang it as usual (see I never learn from the previous incident whereby I got bitten :P)

when I told my younger sis about it, I realiase she notice Fluffy too. Yup my sis call her Fluffy.. I think everyone likes Fluffy Why? I been seeing quite a few people feeding her, sayanging her. I think they all call her Fluffy too , accordinly to my Elder sis, she heard people calling it Fluffy..

My younger sis bought cat food just for her. Aint Fluffy blessed? The other day when we brought Tin and Crystal to feed her, a cat which passes us smell the cat food and we fed it too. See because of a blessed Fluffy, the other cat get fed too. A hungry cat. Noted a collar around it, wonder who abandon both of them.   Who knows maybe Fluffy isn't being abandon?

Anyway I can't help but to think of this today Mathew 6:25-30



25"(A)For this reason I say to you, do not be (B)worried about your life, as to what you will eat or what you will drink; nor for your body, as to what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing?



26"(C)Look at the birds of the air, that they do not sow, nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not worth much more than they?






27"And who of you by being worried can add a single hour to his life?






28"And why are you )worried about clothing? Observe how the lilies of the field grow; they do not toil nor do they spin,






29yet I say to you that not even )Solomon in all his glory clothed himself like one of these.






30"But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which is alive today and tomorrow is thrown into the furnace, will He not much more clothe you? You of little faith!

If Fluffy is being well fed, let alone me who is the precious beloved child of God. 

Serenity Prayer

Serenity Prayer

God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.

Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with Him
Forever in the next.
Amen.

Where is the answer

I think deep in my heart I have an answer but still confused. When you have too much choices, this becomes a dilemna ... Happy for Neighbour' breakthough, still waiting for mine.

Am realy going to miss her, the though of it just mad me tear...........sob.... is hard to have a fellow sis in christ at work.

Think the lord has made me stay 2 years ago to witnes the wonder work His in changing her and giving her the breakthrough. Now dear lord, next will be me... will ya remove those torns and shield me from those evil xiao ren.

I think i shd consider i am blessed

Was out with the kids from Beyond services binging them to Mints toy musuem. Was deeply touched by what Miss Raja said. She gave up her job and went full time into social service, intially she wanted to go to other countries but then she realise in Singapore there still exist these kids that needed help. yes in modern singapore, its something that most Singaporeans won't hear or know of.

Ok I do know since I did visit some childrens home, old folks home when I was in Leo club and went on to organise a trip (sad to say only one trip) during my 3rd year in poly . Yup first 2 years I was with NP Strings, 3rd yea I went MIA there and join Leo club :P.


As Miss Raja tells us their stories, it just sound familar Ok well these children are usually people of low income disadvantage problems. More often than not, quite alot of them have parents who are drug addicts, jailbirds. You know so many years have passed since I grad from poly and the same story still goes on. haiz..

the kids helping their parents to inject the drugs in, etc etc. I can of admire how Miss Raja handle the kids, make a difference in their lives.

Seeing these kids, I think I am blessed, I don't have to go through what they go through. Some of these kids are well behaved,  some are naughty (in our eyes of cos0, but very often these kids are street smart. Given the right training, these kids will make it one of these days

Thats what I believe. :)

Thank you lord

2 Sisters reminded me. I think I should really thank the lord and don' t be so ungrateful fellow.

Got an award today for doing the forecast piece which I spend alot of time for the past 2 years trying to revamp the whole process. was a surprise but really i feel nothing. Nothing exciting if u were to ask me. I do have peopel telling me well deserve and its long overdue anyway... I really feel nothing. If this award has come earlier before that incident , I probably would have jump for joy.

But this time round after all that has happened, it does not mattered anything to me now.  Everyone asking a treat from me now .(strange that when u have award, everyone would just suddenly become friendly to you, congratulating you... its not even a promotion or what)  nah... I am just totally can't be bothered.  Bad huh me?  Well basicaly I am just neutral.... 心灰意冷吧??

If I have a chance to tell my boss I would tell her: You know what I want, I can't be bothered with this award...

I greedy? Nope I am not.. what matters more is something else which I know if I continue to stay here, I won't get it..... and giving me this award as a sweetner, sorry I don't buy this trick anymore...

Nevertheless. I thank you lord for giving me this award. Someday I will see how this will change my life though I can't see it now.

Star Egg .. No should be Egg in Star shape

Pretty? Cute?  Dear TS has this made for me. I happen to text her last sunday and telling her I was feeling down. And she made this for me for Monday's lunch. So sweet. I thank the Lord for her presence. i was telling her the other day if I have left this company for another 2 years ago, I won't have get to know her better. In a way its via J sis. If not for her hospitalisation I won't have to get to know TS better.

Guess the lord has some plans for me. I am busy planting seeds along the way too. Thought the seed hasn't grown yet, the seed has been sowed. One day surely it will bloom and florish....