For a girlfren

走过就好,
错过别回头,
放开双手,
带自己离开

也许就如薇说的旁观者清, 我这个旁观者看到的就是一个为自己找借口的人. Gal, 你要勇敢面对事实。 Leave it to Fate, may not work out as you need to make a decision, don't spend time worrying and finding excuses to forgive. Yes you need to forgive but not via this manner.

You want to give another chance but you have doubt, which means you don't have peace at your heart. Remember what I told you, you must have peace in your heart whatever your decision is.

看到你不开心的样子，我好为你难过。

时间会治疗一切，但希望你能快些走出来。加油！！

lalala mood

In a happy mood since 2 Fridays ago because its offical. I do not have to cover my collegue when she is on maternity which is starting next week. Yippie...

I know I sound mean. But really work is at my neck now. I got no more bandwidth. Tried that from Jan till Apr, and tell you I never been so tired before. I already doing my own stuff plus my ex team lead stuff since late last year and no headcount replacement. So give me some more, I am not going to float but drown...

I am glad cos I didn't have to turn down my boss as she didn't approach me Amen.. Previously my collegues were telling me : You think you can escape... Well the likelihood of me covering a certain piece is very very high since I used to be the one doing and I was already covering the person when she was on long medical leave since Jan...

And hmm my boss is going to help me cover my forecast when i am on leave.. cos no one wants to do this forecast piece.. What a irony ha ha.. spend 3 hrs going thru with boss last week and that almost make me have a sore throat... gosh... and she ended up with 6/7 pages of notes. .and till now i still havent add in all the formulas for her easy checking.. hmmmmm I never have this luxury when I take over from my ex team lead . Alot of things I got to figure out and all those automation i got to do it myself lor.

Its ok.... Well at least i get to be on leave .. I really need a break else all of you will see a zombie panda looking Mei.... or maybe a robot??



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Was happy for Xiao Yu too. I was so happy when she ping me last monday. I was concern that I havnet hear from her and blur me forgot to ask for her hp number. And with the typhoon, was wondering where is she. Well she is still upset I know but I am glad she listen to me and visit her mum. Not only that she is persistent, the first time she wasn't too happy with her mum and told herself she will never go and vist her mum again. But I am happy that her mum call her and she decide to vist her again. This time round, not as bad as the 1st time.

lord is good, I am really happy for her. I dont know why when I was trying to comfort her I told her to go visit her mum. I kind of recall one of Joel Osteen sermons I guess or could be my own Pastor sermons... guess its probably Spirt led... am so happy yippee..
I know better things are going to happen to her soon, all waiting for her to claim. fdidn't see her lately... :(

Now I hope Ah bell will be a strong gal too. Think she should be back in the coming week, hope I can try to talk to her some time .. Cos its the dreaded close again.

What is wrong with the place Taiwan. sounds like a sad place.. hmmmmm sorry the events revolving around these 2 ladies are their personal life stories, cannot disclose the details afterall its their story not my story, and I need to respect them.

Something to share

Heard this in Joel Osteen sermons in one of his pod cast. Think the title is "Recognising what battles to fight"

Kind of forgotten this, until Sis Amy (should call her Amy mummy cos she is so motherly :) reminded me of this recently.


25% of the people you meet wouldn't like you and never will
25% won't like you but could be persuaded to
25% will like you but could be persuaded not to and
25% will like you and stand by you no matter what

The best way to answer your critics is by your actions; Stay focused on the main goals that God has put in your heart!

This is a kind reminder to me not to focus too much on the critics that we received. These are like little distractions to us.

Focus instead on the main goals..

u believe this?

Since yesterday , I been receiving this via SMS:

Today is the day when Singtel, M1, Starhub celebrate the mark of Singaporeans sending a total of 60 billions local messages. Forward this msg to 10 person and you will have $49 of outgoing calls free!!! After so, you may check your phone bill to verify.

Do you folks believe above. I really laugh at people who send me this, one of which is my sis. HAHA. sorry no offence but really it just doesn't make sense.

Have you folks ask these questions:
1) why would Singtel, M1, Starhub jointly have this so called promotion. They are competiors mind you.
2) If its true, shouldn't we have learn from it via the mass media. Even if its not mass media, surely there would have been offical announcements directly from the telco
3) Look at the grammer mistake above
4)Why $49? since when did telco especially the red symbol one become so generous.
5) How do they track the sms, unless their server is so powerful?

And lots of qns continue. I think this is most likely the work of someone who wants to jam the servers, or someone testing how naive singaporeans are ........


well don't take it too seriously.... 就当是个玩笑.

Maybe I should..

count my blessings like what Joey Jie always tell me.

Like what she tell me, look around us, there are so much more people who needed help. Vs them, we are so much more fortunate.

Eg, We still have jobs vs those who lost their jobs. We have our family vs those who are orphans. The list goes on..........

My company has been laying off people and lately another round has come, and this time on finance. I know I am not part one of the unfortunate ones, maybe I should count my blessings.

Ironically, some years back when I was still in my 1st job, I did wish that I was one of those who got layoff . Maybe then I was kind of sick of my job and having work so many years there, I could get 5-6 months of package... see when you are young, you are bolder.

Now I am well.... I don't know.... kind of mid life crisis feelling.

I don't know what to do next.

One thing for sure, the lately events again confirm this: bosses are hard to please, cos they will judge you. The lord never judges. I always tell myself everything comes from the lord. He is the provider of everything, be it blessings, promotion etc. so look upon him.

I guess deep in my heart I know what to do with my job, I just want to confirm something else before I took another plunge.

On other parts of my life, I am still clueless. Can Jesus whisper into my ears or appear in my dream tonight.

I never had good sleep nowdays.. only except this afternoon. Ironically when I am terribly ill, and when I didn't sleep a wink last night. Its just tossing and tossing,left, right up and down all directions, all venues. Sofa, my sis bed, everywhere.. real pain in my head, limps, moments of cold, and hot and you name it..

Low Point

I think I probably reach low point in my life. I am kind of shock at my own reaction this afternoon, I just tear non stop, until my eyes are all red probably swollen now.

Talk is cheap For eg I tell X, C is wearing a nice dress today. And all the while C is just standing beside me, I don't even look at C in my eye, as if she is non existent. How would C feel. C would probably feel I am not sincere, I am just talking crap in order to please her.

Yes this is exactly what I feel now, talk is cheap. I don't need all these flowerly langues to tell me how good I am,show me the actions. It's not as if I am asking for increment or promotion (of cos if there are, I truely appreciate). If I want a higher position, long ago I would have been one, its a matter of whether I want to take that up or not.

What I am trying to say is where is the appreciation, the action. It's not even reflected on the basic grading. It still the same grade, and majority fell in that grade. My heart is feeling: "I am great , so ..."


Doing extra work, putting extra hours making sure everything is running right is just not worth it. Imagine someone who is doing lesser, more bochap, is also getting the same grade as you, what does this signal to you. Do less work right?


Anyway I guess today's incident just tell me, time for some action. Whatever things that people usually says is all crap. Somethihng that we should all remember is everything is political,it all depends on who the management is.

Fund raising for Charmaine

Posting this on behalf of my gf, Shanice.

A fund raising activity to help Charmaine who has cancer and requires huge sum of $$$$, my gf has come up with the below activity to help them. May Abba daddy keep all of them in good healthy and Charmaine to a speedy recovery

Fighting the Monster -- Fund Raising Jul 4, '09 10:38 AM
for everyone
I'm sure most of you might have heard about the huge sums of money that Cynthia is trying to raise for her daughter, Charmaine's cancer treatment.
Visit the web --- http://ourfeistyprincess.com/index.php

I would like to organise a fund raising event for this purpose by having a 1 hr fun jumpers workshop for all dogowners & their dogs.
I have emailed Charmaine's mother about this fund raising idea & I hope we will not disappoint her.

Do note that All money collected is for Charity & will be donated to the family for Charmaine's treatment.

This Event is also listed in http://ourfeistyprincess.blogspot.com/


Fight The Monster Fund Raising
-- Fun Jumpers Workshop & Fun Games

Venue: Bishan Park Dog Run (small field)
Date: Sat 11th July
Time: 7 - 8pm
Fees: $50 per dog & owner
Additional dog @ $10 each

Activities:
1) Fun Games eg: Doggie Race, Hurdle Race, Best Costume
2) Fun Jumpers Workshop

Do register with your name, contact number & full payment.
As this is for Charity, there will be no refund.

Do register by 10th July Fri.

Email your registration & enquiries to: charitydogsports@yahoo.com.sg