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越压抑,越思念。。。。。。

The Barefoot Professor: by Nature Video

Start running barefooted..

The lord remove the mountain?

I actually am feeling indifferent when I hear the news. My boss suddenly called for a meeting and then announced what a few of us had been hearing. Yup she is rotating out to another role.

Xiaoheng say the lord has remove the moutain. i don't know but I trust in the lord. Meanwhile while I am still here, guess its might be good. No idea anyway she has already hired a new manager and have gotten a few of us to report into the new manager. Whatever, i don't bother.

its clear to me, the season is over for me to be in this team.

Xiaoheng asked me a question if I have asked God whats God's reason of putting me in this team. I been thinking and I can only think of 2 reasons.

1) to help to bridge Miss E and the rest of the team and today I can proudly say I have accomplished that.

2)Lord is showing me his Grace and Love towards us. I really see the transformation of neighbour, totally change to a lovely lady. And I relaly appreicate all the fellowship time I have with her these days,this is something I won't dare to dream about 3.5 years ago. In fact then I often ask why she as a child of God behaves in that manner.

staying cool

Am staying cool like a cucumbr and I pray i will maintain this till next tuesday is over.....

Lord I come to you that I remained cool and composed and have a cheerful peaceful heart and not get agitated no matter what M says. I do not want to and do not wish to get upset over this again.

I tell myself the lord will avenge for me and all promotions comes via the lord. Justice will be done.

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新加坡之夜 Kit Chan: A song of "One World"

Great vocal.. she never fails to diasappoint me. only pity is this outfit is not flattering on her, the hair piece looks weird too.

Blessed is the man whom the lord shall not impute sin

Tears were already formed in my eyess some minutes ago when Pastor Keith shared on the Prodigal son. By the time when I hear this verse "Blessed is the man whom the lord shal not impute sin", my tears just roll down from my eyes... oooops kind of embrassing

Here I am accompanying new believers to the welcome party and there I go tearing non stop, so throughout i am busy wiping my tears. No one saw.. I think..

Well I guess since Tim ask me to accompany a new believer and so I skip my minsitry meeting and well all things has a purpose. Pastor Keith message minster to me. when he shared this verse, It just struck upon me.

Hey why should I be affected by what the 2 Ms says. For the whole week I feel so condemned by what the 2 M say. It just continuous from Tuessday to Wedendsay and by Wedensay 9am, I feel condemn and sad enough.So bad till i feel so useless. Thats how bad the damage was done by these 2 person.I totally lost my trust in them.

Its now 3 weeks and I tell myself enough is enough. If the lord did not codemn me, I shouldn't feel condemned.

The lord is leading me to somewhere better wheby he can make better use of my skill sets. Amen.

The M&M, I just need to eat them .. Chocolates only :)

Depression??

J sis was describing to me syndroms of depression and I went: Ya ya i also expereience this. Then she went: U got mild depressoin. I went.......uh oh... but i did noticed lately I been having bad memory, no mood to work and the list go on........... This got worse since especially since 2 weeks ago...

Its not about job mainly job yes but something else too. Think I been thinking too much. I been having difficulity sleeping, and having sleepless night. Now I don't even have dreams. sweet dreams... ........

Maybe I should start to open up... God help me