Sometimes I wonder why did God make me go through this up and down. One moment I happily on heaven and the next month drop right smack down hard on earth. Ouch!!!!
This is coming to 6th weeks plus, its been a struggle. Its a miracle that I didn't even fall sick, really I didn't even take mc just have gastric and at most rest on weekends= work work work---> Go home--->Work work work.
Now I think I probably lost the trust in some folks. I was so happy when I was promised to go for the course, and she promised to find me a backup. (the joke is I can't take leave now cos no body can back me up for one portion of my work).
Now with E unknown return date to office, my hope of the course crushes. I was hoping to go for the course and waited for a1 yr plus or was it 2 years plus.
This is not the worst part. Its not that I am not understanding, K needs to go for surgery and I know she really needs to, as such we have to help her to cover her work. I kind of pity K, she has to schedule her surgery right in wk 1 and I think boss wants her to try to cover for close, my goodness, why don't let sick people just rest. and K is intending to do that. I tell K, just go rest.
Deep in my heart i was thinking, even if K never goes on surgery I doubt B would let me go for my course.
The next disappointment I have is I keep hearing things like : I hear you. And then just tell me : Mei, I am sorry, you would still have to cover XXXXXXX. I already said I am running out of bandwidth and realy i cant. I know alot of times, I would squeeze myself really hard to produce, i think I should just stop doing that. If it happens, it happens, it its looks ugly on our team, let it be.
I got so much thing to do... how do you expect me to cover for everybody. I can't even take leave now, dont even dare to fall sick.
To rub salt into my wound, on this terrible thursday when I was made to drop my course, told to continue to cover E, and be prepared to cover till the end of the year, I lost mhy contact lens. somehow it drop on the floor while I went for my long time miss facal. :(
When I walk to the bus top after I am done with my facial, of all things, this drunkard has to appear. And i realisae i was alone and i start to pray. This guy just stop right in the middle of the road and try to stop taxi, how dangers that is. The cars are all speeding down this slope. gosh. and from a distance, I can smell the alcohol, confirm he is drunk.
thank god 2 other guys pop up, at least i feel safer. when the pedestrain lights turns green, I quickly move.
What a eventful sad day for me.
Somehow I shed some tears as I went to bed. I was rushing my presentation after I reach home, didnt even have time to think about all these sad stuff. As I lay on bed, i just teared, pray to the lord then fell asleep.
Lord, give me the wisdom and tell me what should I do ..................................
Saturday, February 28, 2009
Congratulations
Congratulations Gal. so happy for ya :)
I really enjoy making this card for ya, and we gals have fun folding the paper cranes for ya... though it was really realy messy with the Glue gun.
I like this technique, 2 piece of paper into one card. I used to do the other method which is so much more tedious using one paper and having to measure before folding into 3 sides. This technique is so much easier though waste paper
I really enjoy making this card for ya, and we gals have fun folding the paper cranes for ya... though it was really realy messy with the Glue gun.
I like this technique, 2 piece of paper into one card. I used to do the other method which is so much more tedious using one paper and having to measure before folding into 3 sides. This technique is so much easier though waste paper
Pattern Paer: Imaginse I think
Card stock: Color mates
Paper with the Xi : thats from penny black or hero arts paper I believe.
Xi punch: From HK, yup ask SJ to buy for me when she went for holiday
Birdie stamp: Verde ... aint they cute
rub on: Can't remember
Flowers: Prima... as usual I am a flower person :)
Saturday, February 21, 2009
Shall we be stupid woman??
Talking to a xiao mei and she tell me this
smart woman and smart guy = divorce
smart guy and stupid woman = marriage
smart woman and stupid guy = marriage
stupid woman and stupid guy = pregnancy
so............
smart woman should act stupid.
And interestingly, my best friend just told me this week that I always appear too strong, confident in front of others and I am scaring all the guys away. I went like : Am I? I am not that smart, and confident. Headstrong maybe haha.... She told me sometimes its good to act stupid.
Hmmm ya maybe I should ah.. should I? But how long can I act stupid? Well if a guy really likes me, he should accept me as I am. I am not that smart and strong. I have my weak side which very few of you will see. Hmm why should I cry in front of you folks bringing sadness to all of you..
Ok tell me if I should just act dumb, and stupid........................
Oh yeah I really feel dumb this afternoon cos I can't solve the soduku and did it wrongly again..:(
And really a failure, can't even secure a date, how sad that can be to be rejected. hmmm..
smart woman and smart guy = divorce
smart guy and stupid woman = marriage
smart woman and stupid guy = marriage
stupid woman and stupid guy = pregnancy
so............
smart woman should act stupid.
And interestingly, my best friend just told me this week that I always appear too strong, confident in front of others and I am scaring all the guys away. I went like : Am I? I am not that smart, and confident. Headstrong maybe haha.... She told me sometimes its good to act stupid.
Hmmm ya maybe I should ah.. should I? But how long can I act stupid? Well if a guy really likes me, he should accept me as I am. I am not that smart and strong. I have my weak side which very few of you will see. Hmm why should I cry in front of you folks bringing sadness to all of you..
Ok tell me if I should just act dumb, and stupid........................
Oh yeah I really feel dumb this afternoon cos I can't solve the soduku and did it wrongly again..:(
And really a failure, can't even secure a date, how sad that can be to be rejected. hmmm..
Friday, February 20, 2009
God is good
I been pondering and reflecting (Ok I am always doing that, what's new ) . I am just surprise at my ownself lately.
1) while in Hanoi one day, my sis call and start scolding me and then asking me if those papers I have are they a package by itself. Turns out that she was trying to unpack my kits. Well she has unpack like 50% of it and I just told her to leave them alone. I hang up the phone laughing about it. In normal circumstances I won't have laugh, I would have scold her instead.
2) One collegue in US was trying to schedule meeting next week, and she has it on my Tuesday and Wednesday. I mailed her back asking if they both were the same meeting and then she told me she is going to cancel the Wed's meeting. I proceed to cancel it and the she came back telling me she make a mistake and it should be the other way round. I merely laugh at it without feeling anything. In the past, I would have grumble a bit hahah.
3) I know this will make some of you not comfortable, but I really want to share this . This is important and I feel its a good testimony.
I shan't detail the exact events just a quick summary. It all happen in year 2006, venue is at Bangkok. It all started with some minor things I can only say things didn't went well, my gf's male fren then (now is bf) then kind of shouted very loudly at me in MBK macdonalds with fiery in his eyes and threaten to beat or punch me. Imagine he was loud enough to attact all the people there , his knuckles was all bruises from all the knocking on the table.
Imagine me one girl there all alone and helpless. As for my gf, well at that point in time I was disappointed with her, for pretending teng gong. (well guess there is nothing much she can do right.. hmm)
At that moment I didn't speak back, I just kept quiet throughout. I think its really wisdom from God, I actually feel the peace from him. And deep inside I was planning what to do. I was planning at most I book another room (yes I don't know why I was so dumb enough then to help him save cost so when my gf ask me if he can share room with us , I said yes) , and take the next flight back to sg immediately. I pray in tongues throughout. And well ok nothing happen. Thank god.
Somehow for whatever reason, we didn't get to sit together on our flight back and actually I was thanking God for this. When we came out, I just go. I didnt even swith on my mobile (Ok the truth is I did that purposely, Sorry my gf, I just don't want to share the same cab back with him, yup this guy stays near me. )
After that naturally he didnt score any points. Somehow or rather I didn't get to meet him , think God didnnt want me to. It just always happen either I am away or sick or whatever. Until late last year, as I was walking back home , I cross the road earlier than I normally would. And there I saw him alighting . I smile at him and he kind of look awaward and quickly walk away. At that point in time, I know I had let go. I never ever thought I can forgive so easily...
And lately when I took a ride back from my gf cos she was going to his house, I alight at his carpark, saw him and talk to him and now truely I know there is no more bondage of hatred. :) You can say I am being very petty and not able to forgive until now but if it were you, tell me how would you have reacted. Probably you would have cried, I didn't. But of cos I do fear if things might happen. He reminds me so much of my brother. Where he was younger then, he always bullys me and causing injury to me. (I guess thats where my strong character comes from). I don't cry easily due to that. The more u want to see me cry, the more you won't.
To be able to let go and forgive is good but its not easy and I know its thru HIM that I can do it. :)
God is good. Amen!
1) while in Hanoi one day, my sis call and start scolding me and then asking me if those papers I have are they a package by itself. Turns out that she was trying to unpack my kits. Well she has unpack like 50% of it and I just told her to leave them alone. I hang up the phone laughing about it. In normal circumstances I won't have laugh, I would have scold her instead.
2) One collegue in US was trying to schedule meeting next week, and she has it on my Tuesday and Wednesday. I mailed her back asking if they both were the same meeting and then she told me she is going to cancel the Wed's meeting. I proceed to cancel it and the she came back telling me she make a mistake and it should be the other way round. I merely laugh at it without feeling anything. In the past, I would have grumble a bit hahah.
3) I know this will make some of you not comfortable, but I really want to share this . This is important and I feel its a good testimony.
I shan't detail the exact events just a quick summary. It all happen in year 2006, venue is at Bangkok. It all started with some minor things I can only say things didn't went well, my gf's male fren then (now is bf) then kind of shouted very loudly at me in MBK macdonalds with fiery in his eyes and threaten to beat or punch me. Imagine he was loud enough to attact all the people there , his knuckles was all bruises from all the knocking on the table.
Imagine me one girl there all alone and helpless. As for my gf, well at that point in time I was disappointed with her, for pretending teng gong. (well guess there is nothing much she can do right.. hmm)
At that moment I didn't speak back, I just kept quiet throughout. I think its really wisdom from God, I actually feel the peace from him. And deep inside I was planning what to do. I was planning at most I book another room (yes I don't know why I was so dumb enough then to help him save cost so when my gf ask me if he can share room with us , I said yes) , and take the next flight back to sg immediately. I pray in tongues throughout. And well ok nothing happen. Thank god.
Somehow for whatever reason, we didn't get to sit together on our flight back and actually I was thanking God for this. When we came out, I just go. I didnt even swith on my mobile (Ok the truth is I did that purposely, Sorry my gf, I just don't want to share the same cab back with him, yup this guy stays near me. )
After that naturally he didnt score any points. Somehow or rather I didn't get to meet him , think God didnnt want me to. It just always happen either I am away or sick or whatever. Until late last year, as I was walking back home , I cross the road earlier than I normally would. And there I saw him alighting . I smile at him and he kind of look awaward and quickly walk away. At that point in time, I know I had let go. I never ever thought I can forgive so easily...
And lately when I took a ride back from my gf cos she was going to his house, I alight at his carpark, saw him and talk to him and now truely I know there is no more bondage of hatred. :) You can say I am being very petty and not able to forgive until now but if it were you, tell me how would you have reacted. Probably you would have cried, I didn't. But of cos I do fear if things might happen. He reminds me so much of my brother. Where he was younger then, he always bullys me and causing injury to me. (I guess thats where my strong character comes from). I don't cry easily due to that. The more u want to see me cry, the more you won't.
To be able to let go and forgive is good but its not easy and I know its thru HIM that I can do it. :)
God is good. Amen!
Don't Judge a book by its cover
Lately was just reflecting on myself and feel I shouldn't at times pass a judgment on people just by my own experience or by other experience. Sometimes people do things based on the circumstance then and people at times do change over time.
For eg, just last Sunday Dor was telling me how Robin (sorry Robin if you happen to chance upon this blog, no offence meant to you, ) came earlier to help to set up fire , brought 2 bottles of Wine, even bought along a board game to have fun with the rest. I was really surprise . Never did I expect Robin to do this. Guess I was wrong to assume certain behaviour based on my past experience. Ok must clarify here there is absolutely nothing wrong with Robin, its just well each and everyone of us has our good points and minor flaws here and there . Its all subjective ya.
Lately I been thanking god, my "neighbour" just seem so nice to me. I overheard giving training to a collegue in the US for some transistion, and she has been encouraging to the collegue This is really different from her past behaviours. Did I tell u folks that I had to hold back tears 2 years back then over some minor incident. She was that fierce to me . But well god is good, she is a totally change new person. Grace Grace.....
And her been so encourageing to the collegue is something I ought to learn from her. Honestly the piece of work that she is transisting now is not her baby, but she has to deliver the training due to (what i been telling u folks) . Yet she is so positive. I got to learn from her. How ashamed I am now.
Just a separate note, I am kind of disappointed over certain things, just that really it taught me certain things, it takes time to see people, and don't always judge a book by its cover. Read its content, page to page and look for the underlying meaning.
If you have been offended by me, I apologise. If you know me well enough, I am the type 嘴硬心软 . I am just being hard on the mouth to you folks only but deep in my heart thats really not what I meant. Hmm sometimes maybe thats a form of protection, maybe? Thats why I said you got to really know me well enough to know what I said is it for real or not hahaha.
When I said I want to be mean, or I don't want to do certain thing, end of the day, you will see me still completing those stuff. Dumb ya.. shake head at my ownself now...
For eg, just last Sunday Dor was telling me how Robin (sorry Robin if you happen to chance upon this blog, no offence meant to you, ) came earlier to help to set up fire , brought 2 bottles of Wine, even bought along a board game to have fun with the rest. I was really surprise . Never did I expect Robin to do this. Guess I was wrong to assume certain behaviour based on my past experience. Ok must clarify here there is absolutely nothing wrong with Robin, its just well each and everyone of us has our good points and minor flaws here and there . Its all subjective ya.
Lately I been thanking god, my "neighbour" just seem so nice to me. I overheard giving training to a collegue in the US for some transistion, and she has been encouraging to the collegue This is really different from her past behaviours. Did I tell u folks that I had to hold back tears 2 years back then over some minor incident. She was that fierce to me . But well god is good, she is a totally change new person. Grace Grace.....
And her been so encourageing to the collegue is something I ought to learn from her. Honestly the piece of work that she is transisting now is not her baby, but she has to deliver the training due to (what i been telling u folks) . Yet she is so positive. I got to learn from her. How ashamed I am now.
Just a separate note, I am kind of disappointed over certain things, just that really it taught me certain things, it takes time to see people, and don't always judge a book by its cover. Read its content, page to page and look for the underlying meaning.
If you have been offended by me, I apologise. If you know me well enough, I am the type 嘴硬心软 . I am just being hard on the mouth to you folks only but deep in my heart thats really not what I meant. Hmm sometimes maybe thats a form of protection, maybe? Thats why I said you got to really know me well enough to know what I said is it for real or not hahaha.
When I said I want to be mean, or I don't want to do certain thing, end of the day, you will see me still completing those stuff. Dumb ya.. shake head at my ownself now...
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
A link to share
http://www.uglyny.com/
My sis sent me this , well just take a look and share with me your thoughts. hee hee.
My sis sent me this , well just take a look and share with me your thoughts. hee hee.
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