Weird feeling

Its just a weird restless mood. Don't ask me why, I dont know too. Maybe cos I grow older today ?

Thank u all for your blessings. As always I spend the day with myself. To me there is nothing to celebrate cos its just another ordindary day. I don't have the habit to celebrate since young. Nowdays my sweet sis would usually buy a cake for me though.. muacks.

Going out with frens during this period is more of a excuse for gathering people else its so hard to gather all the good frens .. :) I enjoy their presence, their accompany. Its not the bday that has got the meaning, its the frenship that matters. The same applies to father's day, mother's day. Do you think your parents will be happy when you only celebrate once a year with them. I bet you that they will rather u be a filial daughter/son all year long thats what matter most. I know I haven't been a good daughter... :(

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I am happy a while ago that L tell me she wasn't angry with me. Could be misunderstanding or misinterpretion by another fren of us.... Whatever it is, the past has passed and I am glad its all over

Morale of the story : Always hear from horse's mouth.
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Its just a weird feeling... arrrg hopefully it goes away tomorrow..

小时候

不知道是不是老了, 最近老是想起小时候，星期一,想起了以前养的猫儿，狗儿 只只 都有名字的。

阿三叔叔送了两只的狗儿, carmi 和 puteh(carmi 还是到了星期二才想起它的名字)。可惜养了两三年吧， 被毒死。大概是那个狠心的邻居干的。后来， 再养了两只狗， 也许是缘分， Johnny和 walker 颜色， 样子跟 carmi, puteh 是一样. carmi 和johnny 睡觉的姿势是一模一样的.

一天,一只小狗跟我姐姐回到家. 姐说她怎么赶都赶不走. Goldie 从 此成为家中一份子。 大多数的猫猫都跟这些狗和睦相处的。 印象中好象只有Jeffery 吓得 从 此在横樑上行走。



在我较小时，哥跟姐姐养兔子，鱼。 妈妈养鸟。我就是跟着这群小动物长大的。 还是觉得这些猫狗好可怜，老是被毒死。到搬家时就直剩下johnny和来福。（动物都有灵性的，突然家里的猫都不见了，直有来福留下） 好后悔没把它带着走，妈妈也是。有回去看它们，看到我时，它们好开心。

Johnny 扑向我，来福也过来了。一阵日子后，妈跟我说它们死了。

回想起他们，让我好感伤，我竟然流泪了。。。。。。

难过 失望

今晚,心情不好。好失望，也很难过。大家是朋友这么多年了，难道你们还不了解我吗？ 关心地慰问，竟然变成。。。不知道她认为是嘲笑，责备。。。。。 Whatever.... 总之我的出发点是关心，担心，若有需要帮忙之处，我一定会帮她，就这么简单。

不直接问她是担心她不想让我们知道，只好问另一位友人。 走错了。

I can only say now i totally regret. Lesson learn today is next time ： Mind your own biz, don't be so kpo. Don't bother about your frens too much, dont bother to ask and share your concern. If they really need help they will ask. I am not angry but very disappointed and sad. Its mixed feelings. Don't know should I been maligned, betrayed or what?

The last straw..........

Wonder when the last straw will come to break the camel's back..

a pleasant surprise

Hmm got a pleasant surprise when i reach home yesterday. Got a bouquet of flowers. Not from a guy, not from a gal but from a boutique. Now how I wish its from a guy .. hee hee... Every year I will receive card from this boutique but never did I expect a bouquet of lovely roses this year. Maybe cos I never visit them for a long long time and they decide to send me flowers to remind me ??

Nah no budget to go buy their nice dresses.... Too tired to take photos... rushing for my forecast. As law of dimishing returns say when u reach the peak, your productivity will slow down.. I think i hit that now...................... how how how . Wonder how long i can hang on...

Restless

Why am i blogging at this timing cos i am feeling helpless and restless. Everytime when it comes to my forecasting time, I auto fell into this mode. See no controllers has given me any data yet, one say no changes expected, When I look at the numbers I know I cannot use it and I need to adjust... haiz.

This morning i was just thinking my boss might as well give me a sleeping bag as a pressie and I can sleep overnight in the office. since i will be slogging late at night too... sleep in office i still can have longer hours of sleep

June 22

Status Quo. Everything remain the same.. is this a good or bad sign?