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Feeling down

first of all, sorry about the layout of this blog. Had wanted to change it a long time ago but just didn't had the time. Bear with it ya, I will fix it up when I can find the time (let;s see when )

Feeling a little down.. so decide to pop in here for a while before I continue with my work. The stress is back again resulting in my gastric haunting me  again.. yes i been eating non stop again.. put back 2 kg..

Just feel down since this afternoon by a sequence of events. And guess when I open my lappie and see a parituclar email, that just trigger off everything. It all boils down to relationships with people, work, etc etc.

People are just hard to please. Its probably easier to please God. Ironically Pastor just touch on the topic of keep your heart at rest and God will keep everything for me. Why am I still so down and trouble. I just can't keep still. Have been telling myself to keep still for the longest time. I thought I did it and today I realise I didn;t .

Stupid me, asking for trouble myself.  I am beginning to dislike myselt at times. Tell myself must do one thing and yet I do another thing.

I dislike myself for being so coward, why can't i just being more forefront and just say what I really want to say deep in my heart.

Because of fear? Why should I fear. I don't know.

Someday I think I might just....     so hard..   

Jolene sis has been reminding me to love myself more and I should do that.. Even frens tell me this. I should really learn to love myself more and forget about underserving person, ungrateful fellows. Sometime people just don't deserve blessings from me since they do not appreicate .

I wonder why are there these people exisiting in my life, in my work everywhere... 

Dear lord, give me the strength just as u give me in year 2009 to continue this journey of life. Its so hard, so tough. that many a times i feel like giving up. Make sure I don't break down lord.. I dont know how long i can withstand..

An eventful week

Begins Monday with me somehow slipping at the table and breaking my nail. My poor thumb, and the nail just cut with me bleeding.. Had to cut my nail really really deep in, pain.. WAsh with with rubbing Alcohol.. Pain Pain Pain

Went into Office on Tuesday to find someone's dustbin on my left pedestral drawer. Thought it might belong to my collegue infront and decide to put it behind her although deep in my heart kind of feel its teh collegue on my digonal who puts it besides me.

I have no violent objects with the bin beside me, but problem is this is obviously blocking the passage way. Now it seem I am the one blocking the way.

That neighbour lets call her K came in and put the bin back. TS later told me she complain the passway is narrow and if I can push in my pedestral. I told TS, the day I came in to pack my stuff, I already notice passageway is narrow thus I did a favor by not pushing the pedestral drawr all the way out.. so half lof it or rather 3/4 of it is still underneath my desk. But I do need space to put my legs right.

And K has all the space that she can to put the bin beside her pedestral. She came out from meeting and ask me if I can move in my pedestral so she can put her bin, I move in a little.  But I did ask why she can't have the bin beside her.

"Oh i need to bend to put rubbish in" was the reply.    I mention that someone might kick the dustbin and fell, she replied: I tape it down then"  Don't u think she deserves a slap on her face.


I mention this to nah nah and rogie and both of them came over later and tell me is really purposely that she is trying to block the path so I can't walk there... Really really selfish and evil.

Thursday I had a call and half way I wanted a bio break and I put down the headset. Realise the sound is loud and was trying to tune it down further so it won't affect the rest. Before I can adjust completely, she turn around : Can you don't put on speaker?"

I replied I didn't . She went on to comment : "Why so loud" i replied: " This is not my pohone"" .. OK this is true that is not my phone, my phone somehow got spoilt and so t IT change to some other old phone .

Before I left to the washroom, I make this remark: " I am not so inconsiderate, don't worry"

Friends, if you know me, I will never say this. Thats  not in me.  She piss me off and thus I said that on purpose.


Now the blinds in my office is terrible. And the sunlight is too strong, its so glaring and I can't even see a thing on my lappie even though I had the blinds down.

And our lovely K simply adore the beautiful cross junction traffic and always have the blinds up. why? She is not facing the same problem as me as she is in  sitting in a differnent directon from mine.   If I ever caught her pulling up the blinds behind me, I will scold her, I promise.

Inconsiderate selfish collegue. I am thinking maybe I should offer her my seat then. Since she love to view the scenary. She has wondering imagination too, viewing rain as snow.... And viewing her as morons who doesn't appreciate scenery


Come on, I would love to have the binds up too but unfortunately as I need to work and needs to see the screen I can't afford to have the binds up.    Btw we are paid to work not to see scenery. and how much scenery can we have...

The thought of having her as my neighbour and the glare is so bad that it makes me going home earlier by 45 mins on Thursday. Really cannot stand her..

Friday went to celebrate the 2 bdays folks. Have a good time. May all their wishes come true

what a way to start for the week

An ucler on my gum. Think I brush my teeth too hard and fast the other day and  hit my gum, thus now an ulcer.  I just somehow slipped at my table, broke my nail. My poor thumb.  Deep cut and  now bleeding.  Had no choice, I had to cut the broken nail really short off the nail bed. Use alcohol to clean it and its really pain... OUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!    

It feel weird now to type it cos I can't use my thumb to press space bar.. goodnes... ouch.. thats going to be really long days to growing the nail back.

男人都很贱

不是吗?在追女人时，甜言蜜语.到手时。不再理睬。或当发现不再喜欢目标时，就把她狠狠抛下，不在理睬。女人永远吃亏，因为永远不知道男人在想什么.

男人都很现实，一直都在掌握女人的举动玩弄女人的感情。因为他们永远清楚爱情何时该放，何时该收.

Its a whole new year 2010

Dear lord,
I want all things that isn't fulfilled in year 2009 to be fullied in year 2010. I know you are there for me and I am not going tolose faith.. its been a tiring year 2009 for me. I wanna rest and cast all my cares to you for you said :" Come to me, you heavy laden...  

I shall rest in ya..

2010 a new Year

My goodness time has pass so fast., and its into a new year. Looking back, I didn't accomplish much this year. Kind of sad. But well life still goes on.

This ehyar shall mark a new phrase of life. The old has pass the new has come... yes.. Amen..

And Lord shall guide me with HIS wisdom. There are certain thigns which I am still trying to sort out, trying to settle be it on the professional workfront or personal life.  I do knwo that daddy god will provide.... and I want to lean on him and trust in him. Though atq times I can't see anything yet but I want to believe that HE is there...


Journey of life.............