Tuesday, March 30, 2010

a Blessing in disguise?

May that this will be a blessing in disguise.

Out of the blue, did I realise I have to cover my collegue. I only realise when he arrnage for a handeover meeting and he told me that boss had said so. er Boss didn't tell me. Shake head. Where is the basic courteousy?

At least she has to inform me right. And when i seek her advise for something today, she mention about the new person must be comfortable. Er so am I comfortable to handle this piece of work, forecast + transiting, + training+backup+ shadow...

Was sad in the evening my North Korea trip got cancelled. sad. .. was looking forward to days of rest and no outside communication ... :( and this was suppose to be the last trip with SJ before she move to KL for good.

May all this all be blessing in disguise

Monday, March 29, 2010

I decided

Well I am kind of disappointed with my boss. The way she answered my 2 qns basically just tell me she is not doing anything for the team. Our grading is an issue, she says she does acknoledged this disparity between Apac/europe/US, her boss also acknolwedges and yet they are doing nothing about this. She even tell me for some of us, we would probably be a grade higher if we are in US. :(

Ok fine, basicaly her response answer this question from the Pulse. It goes something like are employees being rewarded/recognised fairly ?

She wasn't happy about me asking about the salary issue. I told her: Work is a means for most of us. If I use the Singlish way it would be : abu then, u think I free labour is it. HAHA just trying to inject some humour here.

Anyway I guess she only want solutions and not questions but these are fundamental questions that she does need to know that the team is not happy. The others does not ask her does not means they are happy.

Anyway I been thinking about this for a while and I decide to let go. It dawn on me that I been doing the forecast since Aug/sept 08. Ya she did recognise my effort just lately by giving me a cap award. I was kind of surprise but again this recogntion probably came too late. She only realise this last Aug when I decide to go on leave and basically I just bk the tour without getting her approval. I was so bold then.

Well nobody in the team want to be the backup for this tough job so I have to just go on leave to force her to think of something. In the end she back me up and realise is a tough job.

Yes I told her lately that I would no longer want to handle this forecast. I been thinking since this ia next level job and she hasn't recognise me. What is all the crap about in order to move up, u need to do more, need to do this need to do that. All the crap.

Whatever she says rules. Nothing please her. So well this piece of job shall rest with whoever she finds. Yup the new manager.

Yes I want my freedom back. I want my month 3 my quarter end to be free. Gone with the forecast. I want my time, my health back :)


Praise the lord that my boss reaction is surprising calm. My collegues were shock too. Anyway like what I said, its a career suicidal move. To take one big step back. If she wants to use this against me saying this is the reason for me not able to get promotion. So be it.

I don't care anymore. I only need to please the lord.

AS for preggy, seems that the team is getting piss off with her. I am too in a way. But I need to learn to bless her. I don't have to like her but I will try to love her like what Jesus did since He has forgiven all of us.

Its gonna be tough. I need to tell neighbour this too. To try to instill into her.

Oh yes talking about neighbour. Dear lord, forgive me for judging her in the past. She has since turn so lovely. She sometimes make me coffee and on thrusday she is so sweet to have call me to ask if I need an umbrella. I feel so loved and so touched.

I confess to her lately that I used to dislike her for making me cry. heee

am enjoying the daily prayers that I have with her now.. ok need to zzz tomorwo is a long day

Monday, March 15, 2010

Attack?

I was kind of surprise this morning. Feel tummy a little unwell but still go to office. on the way to work, I broke out in cold sweat,and feel chest is like restrained. I end up alighting at Dover, find a toilet.

Decide to continue to work but still weak so at Bouna vista i cross over the platform and went straight back home.

Feel much better at home, Decide i do not need a doctor. Come afternoon buay tong le.. ok go see doctor. er.. 2pm there is still this so many patients and i need to wait like 1 hour, clinic close at 3pm. goodness

Walk further to another clinic as I am too lazy to go back home and come down again.

Not much crowd but gosh the doctor is "Super efficient" Each patient on ag 5 mins or less. I really dislike coming to this dcotor and was so happy when the one near my home is open See one is so crowded because the fees are cheaper and the doctor is quite a nice chap. This one, i really dont know if he can really test my temperature with the thermoter scan place not even near my forehead. horrible doctor.


wonder why i suddenly fall ill, because my menses is coming? But no lei, i dont normally encountered this.

can only conclude is devil attack. Pass my ipod full of sermons to a fren's sister to encouage her before her surgery this thursday. was reading Joel Osteen book and have more revelations. hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

Well I am the healed of the lord. Am alwaYs am..

Tuesday, March 9, 2010

Happy and sad

Too many things happen today. Early in the morning was kind of sad over some stuff, well its about what else but friendship. Indirectly I was affected and I felt sad about it.

Treat my dear TS for lunch cos she is really unhappy lately. Nice lunchie.. hee hee and we have revivial of childhood stuff at one of the shops around ang siang :) Lovely place

Afternoon I got affected by friendship again, sad. I think I should not be emotional over friends stuff. Since I cannot control it, I should let them be. It just sadden me cos all are my friends and I want them to be happy. to me is simply misunderstanding. Nobody is at fault really. Its just communication which got misunderstood.

Very often we like to form our own opinion and form our own judgement and there are certain expectations on people. Any events that went out of this alignment will cause disappointment, and misunderstandings.

Sad to see friendship end up in this manner. Why can't we have the kids' big heart forgive and forget.

Ask a friend on this and he says because we are not kids anymore.OK thats an answer.

Daer jesus, keep these people well. I know with your love, everything is possible. Its not gonna be easy but if you can let me experience the wonders of this forgiveness, they too shall be able to expereince this too :)

shucks I got back beatrice bday and I can't find it now.. eh oh i cross my fingers that I kept it in office. Too absent minded lately.

Nwo i better remmber to go for my scan on Wednesday. Doctor says she is not too comfortable and insist on me to go for a scan. I better be a good girl and go for it.

Everything shall be fine. Amen

Friday, March 5, 2010