staying cool

Am staying cool like a cucumbr and I pray i will maintain this till next tuesday is over.....

Lord I come to you that I remained cool and composed and have a cheerful peaceful heart and not get agitated no matter what M says. I do not want to and do not wish to get upset over this again.

I tell myself the lord will avenge for me and all promotions comes via the lord. Justice will be done.

:)

新加坡之夜 Kit Chan: A song of "One World"

Great vocal.. she never fails to diasappoint me. only pity is this outfit is not flattering on her, the hair piece looks weird too.

Blessed is the man whom the lord shall not impute sin

Tears were already formed in my eyess some minutes ago when Pastor Keith shared on the Prodigal son. By the time when I hear this verse "Blessed is the man whom the lord shal not impute sin", my tears just roll down from my eyes... oooops kind of embrassing

Here I am accompanying new believers to the welcome party and there I go tearing non stop, so throughout i am busy wiping my tears. No one saw.. I think..

Well I guess since Tim ask me to accompany a new believer and so I skip my minsitry meeting and well all things has a purpose. Pastor Keith message minster to me. when he shared this verse, It just struck upon me.

Hey why should I be affected by what the 2 Ms says. For the whole week I feel so condemned by what the 2 M say. It just continuous from Tuessday to Wedendsay and by Wedensay 9am, I feel condemn and sad enough.So bad till i feel so useless. Thats how bad the damage was done by these 2 person.I totally lost my trust in them.

Its now 3 weeks and I tell myself enough is enough. If the lord did not codemn me, I shouldn't feel condemned.

The lord is leading me to somewhere better wheby he can make better use of my skill sets. Amen.

The M&M, I just need to eat them .. Chocolates only :)

Depression??

J sis was describing to me syndroms of depression and I went: Ya ya i also expereience this. Then she went: U got mild depressoin. I went.......uh oh... but i did noticed lately I been having bad memory, no mood to work and the list go on........... This got worse since especially since 2 weeks ago...

Its not about job mainly job yes but something else too. Think I been thinking too much. I been having difficulity sleeping, and having sleepless night. Now I don't even have dreams. sweet dreams... ........

Maybe I should start to open up... God help me

他都不愛我

跌倒了,扫一扫灰尘,再站起来

Never expect that I would lost control this morning and I just teared. Horrible, I wonder why am I so weak. Guess boss heard me, thank god she cant see me. But well guess I told her what I been feeling and all she can say is : I wish I can turn back the clock and have this conversation with you earlier on.

I think thats really.I don't know what to say. All i know is she had put words right back into my mouth, stating I have said this and that which is not true. I have to correct her.

Anyway a fact is a fact, it won't change. I have totally lost the trust in her. After what has happen how do you expect me to trust her anymore.

May the lord continue to guide me.

Its a bad fall but I know I can stand up again. I tell myself its just a job. I dont like it i can always find a new job. A job is just a job. I am blessed that I am still alive, still kicking around.

A loss might not be a loss. Its is a blessing to me. I know...

In remembrance

surpise, that people leave me blessings of birthday wishes in my FB. Thanks folks ya.. Didn't expect it...

Just a ordinary day for me. However Pastor mentioned on Sunday about celebration in remembrance. Why did God want us to pray since he alreayd know what we want. He delights us in remembering him.

Guess now I am full of thoughts about what to say to Boss tomorrow. Pray about it and thought about. Anyway it has got to besettled sooner or later.

Also I am full of thoughts of some other stuff too. kind of messy head now. May the lord leads me and guides me, may the holdy spirt speaks to me, give me divine appointments, qarah.

Lord, give me success from today onwards, give me the wisdom, and guide me and teach me. Let me find favour in all people. Nothing is impossible for you lord.