It suprise me

that I actually can still tear about it.

Well well I thought I have walk out of it but looks like I have not totally get over it. Don't mistaken, not over love or anything.

But rather this morning I have a call with a consultant and she told me there isn't a specific trend about me and can't do a profile report for me. Well this is all part of some program that I am in, shan't mention what it is here until I see more clarity and know where i am heading towards.

Didn't surprise me at all, cos the moment that i took the survery was in a mad closing and I wasn't in the right mindset and I don't even know why I response in that manner over the written part. I think I just let go and write whatver comes to my mind. As she ask me further questions to understand me more, in particular to some of my written response, I told her what happened last year.

As I described, tears just flow down automatically to my surpise. Uncontrollably is the word that I should use. Not that I emotional or whatever, I guess the hurt is really really deep, the betrayal of trust and the evil words by the evil tongue, all of which is untrue is just too deep that my whole confidence was dampened.

I am slowly picking up the pieces since late late last year and slowly its going up. I won't let it get to me again. No more bad vibes getting to me again. That has affected me so badly last year.

Well lesson I learn is don't trust people too much especially your.....

Anyway end of the day a job is just a job although sad to say we spend a big major part of our time working. hmm unless I am a tai tai haha.. ok stop dreaming, i think I am the born to be hands on, born to be rollin up sleeves type..

saw a nice jade bangle just now but really really really expensive.... Most likely won't buy.. think i have my camera to think abt it first. that will come first priority hhehehe

要嘛,赶紧死.要嘛,精彩地活着

在我的生活中只有两条路可以走:
要嘛,赶紧死.
要嘛,精彩地活着


quote from liu wei... 中国达人秀......

A thousand years of prayers

Finished this film finally esp when I receive the alert that I need to return to the libray. yup I chance upon this film when I was collecting my reserved book the other day in the library.

Great show.. Not for those who like action packed movies. More of a arty type of film.  This show is about the relationship of a father and daugher whose relationship is stranded in a way. The dad came to Amercia to find his divorced daughter in the hope of helping her.  

Sets me deep in thoughts with the father's hidden past revealed. Must be hard for the dad to have kept this hidden past, victims of communism? hmm maybe.

Overall great show.

李聖傑-你走了

Good vocal....

手放开-李圣杰

知道不知道 ktv MV - 刘若英

放手

chance upon this nice song.

angry birds cake

for some reason I didn't post this even though I have this for so long  there you go.. enjoy..

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Sense of fear

For some reason, I starting to feel a little fear, well maybe its to due to my anxiety over the outcome of some events that I am awaiting. Anyway won't share here until I get the confirmation in time to come. But I starting to feel anxious and also in a way abit undecisiveness, its like at a junction and I hestiating don't know to turn left, right, go straight, or u turn.

Anyway I am telling myself, relax, some decisions can only be made after I go through one stage. Its just weird how human beings love to jump instead of walking properly. And human beings when given choice, also start to become indecisive cos they do not know what is best for them, and start to worry. If there is only choice, they grumble too, because they don't get to choose.

At this point, fear sets in and this is the best time for the devil to set in. Pure coincidentance? Today's daily devotional is the following phrase.

1 Peter 5:8


Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil walks about like a roaring lion, seeking whom he may devour.

I just need ot learn to rest in the lord and be reminded that I got nothing ot fear for HIS blood has coverd me . I call upon the lord to bless me and cover me from the crown of my head to the soles of my feet, take away my anxiety, all infirmities, all worries and  set my heart at rest and at peace. Amen.

如果没有你--莫文蔚。

如果有人在想你,你是幸福的。

打造神國企業~楊肅斌

When Aaron my agent send me this, I didn't click on it, until today. Oh mine, i just have to send it to everyone because it deeply blessed and touch. The beginning strike a chord in me. He took 14 years to tell his parents, I took a year but mum never accept it. Kind of denial I woudl say, so now I simply just ignore and hide and never tell her I am still attending church.

Don't ask me how I go to church these 6 years, occasinarily when she ask , I just have to hide or somehow brush it off. secret Christian I am..

Someday my parents would be saved, in fact this is one of my 3 wishes this year :) Amen.... they would be saved.


Tan Sri Francis Yeo love and trust for the lord also deeply touch me, see how he love his wife, see how strong he is when his wife passed away, a loving father he is, his giving back to society. All these are things that we should learn from him. All glory to the lord..


A quote from him, we always say Bright idea Bright idea. Yes HE is the light of the world, therfore bright idea. :)
Watch it, you will be blessed I promise.

又是个下雨天

十二月的雨季仿佛延迟到一月了。今天又是个下雨天，下了整天。回家的途中，不经意地哼了南拳妈妈的《下雨天》。开始明白J 姐的心情，为什么她会喜欢这首歌，我也喜欢。

今天是秋的生日，生日快乐！！！祝福你，祝你愿望全部实现！

江美琪-我又想起你

Maru

Cute smart cat.. I wish I can hug it.................

Trust

Trust in the lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. Proverbs 3:5.....

不知道从什么时候开始,变得特别会流泪。今早，看到妈抽血时，一瞬间好不难过，好自责，好心痛，觉得没把妈照顾好。泪在眼眶里打滚。

直到上洗手间时，才觉悟：相信主，把一切交给祂。没事的。

Sometimes a Prayer Will Do-Secret Garden...

I can't remember if I ever shared this lovely song. Secret Garden and Tracey Campbell did a gd job.

Love Actually - Sadness

Love is all around us.. Love this show, love the plot the actors and actresses. This is the sad part though, well life isn't always a bed of roses, pretty and sweet, there is always the sad portion.
We just need to learn to pull through and embrace it,

..............saw a friend online the other night but decide not to ping this friend. Sometimes is better to leave it this way I guess.