Weird feeling

Its just a weird restless mood. Don't ask me why, I dont know too. Maybe cos I grow older today ?

Thank u all for your blessings. As always I spend the day with myself. To me there is nothing to celebrate cos its just another ordindary day. I don't have the habit to celebrate since young. Nowdays my sweet sis would usually buy a cake for me though.. muacks.

Going out with frens during this period is more of a excuse for gathering people else its so hard to gather all the good frens .. :) I enjoy their presence, their accompany. Its not the bday that has got the meaning, its the frenship that matters. The same applies to father's day, mother's day. Do you think your parents will be happy when you only celebrate once a year with them. I bet you that they will rather u be a filial daughter/son all year long thats what matter most. I know I haven't been a good daughter... :(

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I am happy a while ago that L tell me she wasn't angry with me. Could be misunderstanding or misinterpretion by another fren of us.... Whatever it is, the past has passed and I am glad its all over

Morale of the story : Always hear from horse's mouth.
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Its just a weird feeling... arrrg hopefully it goes away tomorrow..

小时候

不知道是不是老了, 最近老是想起小时候，星期一,想起了以前养的猫儿，狗儿 只只 都有名字的。

阿三叔叔送了两只的狗儿, carmi 和 puteh(carmi 还是到了星期二才想起它的名字)。可惜养了两三年吧， 被毒死。大概是那个狠心的邻居干的。后来， 再养了两只狗， 也许是缘分， Johnny和 walker 颜色， 样子跟 carmi, puteh 是一样. carmi 和johnny 睡觉的姿势是一模一样的.

一天,一只小狗跟我姐姐回到家. 姐说她怎么赶都赶不走. Goldie 从 此成为家中一份子。 大多数的猫猫都跟这些狗和睦相处的。 印象中好象只有Jeffery 吓得 从 此在横樑上行走。



在我较小时，哥跟姐姐养兔子，鱼。 妈妈养鸟。我就是跟着这群小动物长大的。 还是觉得这些猫狗好可怜，老是被毒死。到搬家时就直剩下johnny和来福。（动物都有灵性的，突然家里的猫都不见了，直有来福留下） 好后悔没把它带着走，妈妈也是。有回去看它们，看到我时，它们好开心。

Johnny 扑向我，来福也过来了。一阵日子后，妈跟我说它们死了。

回想起他们，让我好感伤，我竟然流泪了。。。。。。

难过 失望

今晚,心情不好。好失望，也很难过。大家是朋友这么多年了，难道你们还不了解我吗？ 关心地慰问，竟然变成。。。不知道她认为是嘲笑，责备。。。。。 Whatever.... 总之我的出发点是关心，担心，若有需要帮忙之处，我一定会帮她，就这么简单。

不直接问她是担心她不想让我们知道，只好问另一位友人。 走错了。

I can only say now i totally regret. Lesson learn today is next time ： Mind your own biz, don't be so kpo. Don't bother about your frens too much, dont bother to ask and share your concern. If they really need help they will ask. I am not angry but very disappointed and sad. Its mixed feelings. Don't know should I been maligned, betrayed or what?

The last straw..........

Wonder when the last straw will come to break the camel's back..

a pleasant surprise

Hmm got a pleasant surprise when i reach home yesterday. Got a bouquet of flowers. Not from a guy, not from a gal but from a boutique. Now how I wish its from a guy .. hee hee... Every year I will receive card from this boutique but never did I expect a bouquet of lovely roses this year. Maybe cos I never visit them for a long long time and they decide to send me flowers to remind me ??

Nah no budget to go buy their nice dresses.... Too tired to take photos... rushing for my forecast. As law of dimishing returns say when u reach the peak, your productivity will slow down.. I think i hit that now...................... how how how . Wonder how long i can hang on...

Restless

Why am i blogging at this timing cos i am feeling helpless and restless. Everytime when it comes to my forecasting time, I auto fell into this mode. See no controllers has given me any data yet, one say no changes expected, When I look at the numbers I know I cannot use it and I need to adjust... haiz.

This morning i was just thinking my boss might as well give me a sleeping bag as a pressie and I can sleep overnight in the office. since i will be slogging late at night too... sleep in office i still can have longer hours of sleep

June 22

Status Quo. Everything remain the same.. is this a good or bad sign?

有些话

不能说,怎么开口呢? 只能藏在心里最深处..

feel like a panda

Because I havent been sleeping well since Thur Nite. Had a gastric attack towards the midnight and terrible feeling, toss the whole night. Friday was kind of better but still feel stomach weird. Can't sleep.

Sat LS whole day, horrible feeling, eat only porridge. Dinner, ate whatever mum cook. Can't sleep at night
Sun feel so sick, LS too, didnt went church, didn't serve cos i lie in bed whole day. Can't sleep too. Night time porride.. Didnt sleep again.

So today i feel like a big panda going to work... hmmm i going to try to sleep hopefully i can sleep...

Seriously i dont know how i manage to survive for the past few days without really sleeping.. maybe only 1 - 2hrs.. i only know i wake up feeling i didn't sleep at all.

My afternoon

Went to the museum, went to visit the Verner Pantom exhibition and realise Christian Lacroix the costumier is free. Oh I thought Christian Lacroix has ended so I was thrilled to realise I can kill 2 birds with one stone.

Hmm interesting how christian can design all these beautiful costumes for the operas. And as for Verner Pantom, his designs of furniture is really cool, imagine at his times in the 60s. Ok, I am not art student nor design student. I go there merely to see colors to get some color inspiration :p....

Here's the website of National musuem, I shall go to the museume and visit the whole musuem the next time round. Tell you a secret, I live to go to musuem and get to know the history. What people eat, dress, lifestyle, etc. I remember when I was in korea, I was so thrilled to see the exhibits, in Australia, I was so sadded about the life of the aborginals, how they are being bullied by the whites, how their children got kinapped, etc. In delphi, Greece, I was so reluctant to leave the musuem but as time is up so I go tno choice. I think I could have stay a whole half day in the Delphi musuem. There are so many things to see...

Anyway went to Art fren to get some brushes after the museum trip and pass by Takashimaya. And on my goodness, are you sure there is a recesssion going on? Look at the crowd.


Went to the libray to return my sis and my books, pass by citigems. And got attacted by this pendant.. oooh its really nice with the rose and white gold. Spotted a pair of earrings too. Did I tell you folks i lost one of my very old ear studs(cheap one of cos, not even 0.2 caracts, its probably 0.0X :p) haiz....


The sales guy was telling me this is very good price. And I tell him, why is it whenever its my birthday month its GSS and well there is no more special member price le.... yeah.. so sometimes I dislike GSS cos everywhere is sales, whats the pont of being a member and getting special price when I don't get to enjoy it.. nah

Think and think, I better save for my lappie instead.. Pendant, there will be more and more new designs.. hehehe thats what I think now. But who knows maybe I will get a bday gift for my ownself..

God, can you drop a pool of $$$ for me. Haiz pay freezse for so many years le. No bonus some more... what a sad life

Cruel but true

Just some couple of mins ago, a fren V ping me on msn and we started to chat. The other day he shared with me he's becoming a daddy soon and I am really happy for him. So there we go chit chatting and so I was saying he has swim up the shore and I am still swimming. So he ask me if I still go for activities and I replied: "All the men are going for sweet young pretty things:"

He agreed with me and say this is a cruel world and this is a brutal fact. And added that it's hard not to find a man who don't go for sweet young girls unless he is so old that no young sweet girls will fall for him.

My reply to him was that he rub some salt on me. He aplogiese to me , well actually nothing to apologise, its really true.

Hmmmm...

June 2nd 六月二号

26 days from now on, things will remain unchange. Yes it won't change.

Dor, so sorry I am still not able to fulfill your wish for me. Was that last year or the year before last year wish. Its a sad thing. Hopefully next year I won't disappoint you......

二十六天后,结果还是一样。
对不起丽，无法完成你的愿望。也许这辈子都不能完成。

Think I must have reach mid life crisis, just feel so lousy and miserable. Really feel like hiding in a corner and cry out loud. But no tears..don't know whats wrong....feeeling so lost...............