I'm going to find time to watch this..... maybe should go alone and cry all my heart out. I am pretty sure I will tear.
http://twitchfilm.net/news/2010/04/first-teaser-for-feng-xiaogangs-disaster-drama-aftershock.php
Thursday, July 29, 2010
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
Trust and believe
Just go to continue to trust and believe... Surely he will turn all things into goodness.
Continue to strengthen me lord and let every trial become my Joy, lord.
Continue to strengthen me lord and let every trial become my Joy, lord.
Monday, July 26, 2010
Sunday, July 25, 2010
It hurts
It hurts to know that that the one you trusted betrayed your trust. I been wondering if this is all a coincidence or? I really hope what I suspect is not real.
The warning came today from a friend. Its just happen a month ago, I happen to passby her cart, and this couple happen to be passing by there too and I introduced to them. After that, my friend felt a strong feeling from the spriting promting her that she need to tell me some stuff after hearing my story.
Now it just happen today I have to not serve the 4th service as I need to prepare my year end closing, running my reports and I walk pass her cart and say hello to her. And this came to her again (she has said to herself that if its meant for me, i will surely appear infront of her).
What she told me in a way did not surprise me cos that thought has come across to me. I realy really hope what I been wondering is not true. there is no reason why my friend would want to say bad things about people whom she did not know . Since my friend meet all kinds of people from all walks of life daily, she tell me to be wary of this couple as they are the deep sort. And she told me I am the opposite, I am the cheerful, always willing to lend people a hand type and no ulterior motive type.
The lord will guide me and open my eyes. I do not have any proof and anyway what happened has happen I just need to be careful and know how to handle this.
I do know I been trusting people too much and people has made use of my kindness to step upon me. i should learn to protect myself. And I shall rest this case to the lord and He will guide my path, remove stones along the path..
Lord, u know my situation and you know my heart. Guide me with your wisdom, open my eyes and let me see who are the true friends, and collegues and who are the one who will help me. I shall let you handle this siuation. You know how to handle the enemies and no weapons formed against me shall prosper for Jesus blood has been spilt and forms a shield on me. No devil can touch me.
Amen..
Deuteronomy 32:35
It is mine to avenge; I will repay. In due time their foot will slip; their day of disaster is near and their doom rushes upon them
Ok now I just shall sip my lemonade and wait for my footstool and the feasting table ..It will appear. As what I told Roland today: Wait for my testimonial...soon .Amen.
The warning came today from a friend. Its just happen a month ago, I happen to passby her cart, and this couple happen to be passing by there too and I introduced to them. After that, my friend felt a strong feeling from the spriting promting her that she need to tell me some stuff after hearing my story.
Now it just happen today I have to not serve the 4th service as I need to prepare my year end closing, running my reports and I walk pass her cart and say hello to her. And this came to her again (she has said to herself that if its meant for me, i will surely appear infront of her).
What she told me in a way did not surprise me cos that thought has come across to me. I realy really hope what I been wondering is not true. there is no reason why my friend would want to say bad things about people whom she did not know . Since my friend meet all kinds of people from all walks of life daily, she tell me to be wary of this couple as they are the deep sort. And she told me I am the opposite, I am the cheerful, always willing to lend people a hand type and no ulterior motive type.
The lord will guide me and open my eyes. I do not have any proof and anyway what happened has happen I just need to be careful and know how to handle this.
I do know I been trusting people too much and people has made use of my kindness to step upon me. i should learn to protect myself. And I shall rest this case to the lord and He will guide my path, remove stones along the path..
Lord, u know my situation and you know my heart. Guide me with your wisdom, open my eyes and let me see who are the true friends, and collegues and who are the one who will help me. I shall let you handle this siuation. You know how to handle the enemies and no weapons formed against me shall prosper for Jesus blood has been spilt and forms a shield on me. No devil can touch me.
Amen..
Deuteronomy 32:35
It is mine to avenge; I will repay. In due time their foot will slip; their day of disaster is near and their doom rushes upon them
Ok now I just shall sip my lemonade and wait for my footstool and the feasting table ..It will appear. As what I told Roland today: Wait for my testimonial...soon .Amen.
Thursday, July 22, 2010
父亲
突然觉得爸爸老了。陪爸复诊时，当护士检查他的视力，看着爸辛苦地，努力的试图想看清楚视力表，那一刹，心头好不难过。当医生解释他的状况时，才惊觉爸的手术不是简单的白内障切除手术。我太不肖了。
In the way maybe its good that i didn't know so I won't have to worry. As the doctor explains that his recovery would take a longer time than the usual cataract removal operation and there are higher chances for my dad to have retianer detachment, I start to fear. Immediately I start to reject in Jesus's name. I am the blessed one so will my dad be. The lord will protect all my whole household. Amen.
Dad will have a speedy recovery, Amen. Doctor say he will need at least a month, I declare dad will recover shorter than that in Jesus name. Amen.
朱自清《背影》
感人的短文，与大家分享。
In the way maybe its good that i didn't know so I won't have to worry. As the doctor explains that his recovery would take a longer time than the usual cataract removal operation and there are higher chances for my dad to have retianer detachment, I start to fear. Immediately I start to reject in Jesus's name. I am the blessed one so will my dad be. The lord will protect all my whole household. Amen.
Dad will have a speedy recovery, Amen. Doctor say he will need at least a month, I declare dad will recover shorter than that in Jesus name. Amen.
朱自清《背影》
感人的短文，与大家分享。
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
犯小人?
最近好像犯小人了。当我心情已经恢复平静时，昨晚S发了封简讯。一看，我晕了。无缘无故我被扯进一些纠纷，一个跟我毫无关系的纠纷。最好笑的是，从头到尾，我都没说过一句关于那件事，现在变成是我在散播谣言。 不理，清者自清。大家知道我的为人就好。
今天发生了一件不愉快的事。我只能说一些误会吧！我也不想多加解释，反正说了也没用。When one has decided and pass judegment on you, there is no way you can clarified. The lord knows my heart and will surely provide a path for me. for now, I just lie down.
The day will surely come.....
今天发生了一件不愉快的事。我只能说一些误会吧！我也不想多加解释，反正说了也没用。When one has decided and pass judegment on you, there is no way you can clarified. The lord knows my heart and will surely provide a path for me. for now, I just lie down.
The day will surely come.....
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
Monday, July 19, 2010
The toilet bowl analogy
A dirty toilet bowl will be dirty no matter how many times you flushed. It will only be clean if its scrubbed cleaned.
一个黑心的人若不好好反省,心始终都是黑的.
你说是黑就是黑,你说是白就是白.你赢了只因我不想跟你争。没什么好争好理论的，吃亏的都是我。但是，记住最终的胜利者会是我，因为主站在我这里。罗 马 书 12:19 亲 爱 的 弟 兄 ， 不 要 自 己 伸 冤 ， 宁 可 让 步 ， 听 凭 主 怒 。 （ 或 作 让 人 发 怒 ） 因 为 经 上 记 着 ， 主 说 ， 伸 冤 在 我 。 我 必 报 应
Am surprised how you can twist and turn your words. Thanks for taking me through this ride of black and white twisting and turning, thanks for letting me witness how you can change so fast. Perhaps something for me to learn. Thank you for letting me see your motive.
You must be wondering why I am with no emotions today, keep on asking me if I am allright. The only part which I dislike is I shed a tear down my right eye, and you saw it. But well no emotion in my tone and don't expect me to have any in future too. I already told myself no more shedding of tears, cos its worthless.
I read this verse before meeting you and the lord shall avenge me.
Romans : 12:19
Beloved, do not avenge yourselves, but rather give place to wrath; for it is written, “Vengeance is Mine, I will repay,”[a] says the Lord.
一个黑心的人若不好好反省,心始终都是黑的.
你说是黑就是黑,你说是白就是白.你赢了只因我不想跟你争。没什么好争好理论的，吃亏的都是我。但是，记住最终的胜利者会是我，因为主站在我这里。罗 马 书 12:19 亲 爱 的 弟 兄 ， 不 要 自 己 伸 冤 ， 宁 可 让 步 ， 听 凭 主 怒 。 （ 或 作 让 人 发 怒 ） 因 为 经 上 记 着 ， 主 说 ， 伸 冤 在 我 。 我 必 报 应
Am surprised how you can twist and turn your words. Thanks for taking me through this ride of black and white twisting and turning, thanks for letting me witness how you can change so fast. Perhaps something for me to learn. Thank you for letting me see your motive.
You must be wondering why I am with no emotions today, keep on asking me if I am allright. The only part which I dislike is I shed a tear down my right eye, and you saw it. But well no emotion in my tone and don't expect me to have any in future too. I already told myself no more shedding of tears, cos its worthless.
I read this verse before meeting you and the lord shall avenge me.
Romans : 12:19
Beloved, do not avenge yourselves, but rather give place to wrath; for it is written, “Vengeance is Mine, I will repay,”[a] says the Lord.
Sunday, July 18, 2010
No matter what happens
I shall not shed a single tear tomorrow. Last year I did and I don't want to go through this again... Enough is enough. Stay cool... Since I already said the season is over it means is over. Never had I been this firm..
Lord give me the peace and widsom to guide me through..
This is the first step and I know I have more things to go through in all aspects of my life.. tough but I know the lord is with me through my life journey walk.
Pat Pat myself don't give up...
Lord give me the peace and widsom to guide me through..
This is the first step and I know I have more things to go through in all aspects of my life.. tough but I know the lord is with me through my life journey walk.
Pat Pat myself don't give up...
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
The lord remove the mountain?
I actually am feeling indifferent when I hear the news. My boss suddenly called for a meeting and then announced what a few of us had been hearing. Yup she is rotating out to another role.
Xiaoheng say the lord has remove the moutain. i don't know but I trust in the lord. Meanwhile while I am still here, guess its might be good. No idea anyway she has already hired a new manager and have gotten a few of us to report into the new manager. Whatever, i don't bother.
its clear to me, the season is over for me to be in this team.
Xiaoheng asked me a question if I have asked God whats God's reason of putting me in this team. I been thinking and I can only think of 2 reasons.
1) to help to bridge Miss E and the rest of the team and today I can proudly say I have accomplished that.
2)Lord is showing me his Grace and Love towards us. I really see the transformation of neighbour, totally change to a lovely lady. And I relaly appreicate all the fellowship time I have with her these days,this is something I won't dare to dream about 3.5 years ago. In fact then I often ask why she as a child of God behaves in that manner.
Xiaoheng say the lord has remove the moutain. i don't know but I trust in the lord. Meanwhile while I am still here, guess its might be good. No idea anyway she has already hired a new manager and have gotten a few of us to report into the new manager. Whatever, i don't bother.
its clear to me, the season is over for me to be in this team.
Xiaoheng asked me a question if I have asked God whats God's reason of putting me in this team. I been thinking and I can only think of 2 reasons.
1) to help to bridge Miss E and the rest of the team and today I can proudly say I have accomplished that.
2)Lord is showing me his Grace and Love towards us. I really see the transformation of neighbour, totally change to a lovely lady. And I relaly appreicate all the fellowship time I have with her these days,this is something I won't dare to dream about 3.5 years ago. In fact then I often ask why she as a child of God behaves in that manner.
Monday, July 12, 2010
staying cool
Am staying cool like a cucumbr and I pray i will maintain this till next tuesday is over.....
Lord I come to you that I remained cool and composed and have a cheerful peaceful heart and not get agitated no matter what M says. I do not want to and do not wish to get upset over this again.
I tell myself the lord will avenge for me and all promotions comes via the lord. Justice will be done.
:)
Lord I come to you that I remained cool and composed and have a cheerful peaceful heart and not get agitated no matter what M says. I do not want to and do not wish to get upset over this again.
I tell myself the lord will avenge for me and all promotions comes via the lord. Justice will be done.
:)
Saturday, July 10, 2010
新加坡之夜 Kit Chan: A song of "One World"
Great vocal.. she never fails to diasappoint me. only pity is this outfit is not flattering on her, the hair piece looks weird too.
Sunday, July 4, 2010
Blessed is the man whom the lord shall not impute sin
Tears were already formed in my eyess some minutes ago when Pastor Keith shared on the Prodigal son. By the time when I hear this verse "Blessed is the man whom the lord shal not impute sin", my tears just roll down from my eyes... oooops kind of embrassing
Here I am accompanying new believers to the welcome party and there I go tearing non stop, so throughout i am busy wiping my tears. No one saw.. I think..
Well I guess since Tim ask me to accompany a new believer and so I skip my minsitry meeting and well all things has a purpose. Pastor Keith message minster to me. when he shared this verse, It just struck upon me.
Hey why should I be affected by what the 2 Ms says. For the whole week I feel so condemned by what the 2 M say. It just continuous from Tuessday to Wedendsay and by Wedensay 9am, I feel condemn and sad enough.So bad till i feel so useless. Thats how bad the damage was done by these 2 person.I totally lost my trust in them.
Its now 3 weeks and I tell myself enough is enough. If the lord did not codemn me, I shouldn't feel condemned.
The lord is leading me to somewhere better wheby he can make better use of my skill sets. Amen.
The M&M, I just need to eat them .. Chocolates only :)
Here I am accompanying new believers to the welcome party and there I go tearing non stop, so throughout i am busy wiping my tears. No one saw.. I think..
Well I guess since Tim ask me to accompany a new believer and so I skip my minsitry meeting and well all things has a purpose. Pastor Keith message minster to me. when he shared this verse, It just struck upon me.
Hey why should I be affected by what the 2 Ms says. For the whole week I feel so condemned by what the 2 M say. It just continuous from Tuessday to Wedendsay and by Wedensay 9am, I feel condemn and sad enough.So bad till i feel so useless. Thats how bad the damage was done by these 2 person.I totally lost my trust in them.
Its now 3 weeks and I tell myself enough is enough. If the lord did not codemn me, I shouldn't feel condemned.
The lord is leading me to somewhere better wheby he can make better use of my skill sets. Amen.
The M&M, I just need to eat them .. Chocolates only :)
Friday, July 2, 2010
Depression??
J sis was describing to me syndroms of depression and I went: Ya ya i also expereience this. Then she went: U got mild depressoin. I went.......uh oh... but i did noticed lately I been having bad memory, no mood to work and the list go on........... This got worse since especially since 2 weeks ago...
Its not about job mainly job yes but something else too. Think I been thinking too much. I been having difficulity sleeping, and having sleepless night. Now I don't even have dreams. sweet dreams... ........
Maybe I should start to open up... God help me
Its not about job mainly job yes but something else too. Think I been thinking too much. I been having difficulity sleeping, and having sleepless night. Now I don't even have dreams. sweet dreams... ........
Maybe I should start to open up... God help me
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