Rashes form again. So so so itchy.. goodness. And this time is worst. Not only on the stomache,this morning it appear on my left knee, followed by right knee, neck, all over the place.
No choice, got to visit Dr siew. and the first thing i tell her is: I think I am allergic to work..
Am so depressed now. Depress with the rashes, depress with lots of things. Too many things happen. I still trying to think through all the recent events. arrrrg what a mess.
Now I thinking if E is friend, foe, enemy or ??? Strange strange, her words, actions does not gel. Did we misunderatnd her? or? She is send by someone trying to dig information from me? Why am I still so nice to her? gooodness am I too kind to her?
Thinking through about some stuff. Hmm next year I can buy my own house but housing is so expensive. So how am I suppose to afford. Now mum saw my cross earlier on and make a huge fuss about it. Threatening to chase me out of the house. ya good lor, next year she can chase me out, i should get my own house. hahaha. Anyway I kept quiet.
I do not know why she choose to be in denial. I already told her 5 years ago.
haiz... haiz...
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
Interesting
Forget about work and let me share an interesting thing. I still find it weird and funny.
I was rushing for time one saturday afternoon and I hopped into a taxi. Taxi driver chatted with me and then I was saying how hard it is to get taxi on weekday night on Orchard road, recounting one incident I had.
As the conversation goes, I don't know how, it just lead on and then he kind of mention I am a nice person. As usual I jokingly say how does he know just be talking to me for 10 mins. And then I jokingly say if he knows how to read fortune why dont he tell me when will I get promotion or find someone settle down. He then look at me and say I dress well blablabla... and then suddenly he ask for my name card. I said I dont have and he wanted my number. er of cos I didn't give.
Strange.. need it for his buisness.. since he told me that he does have some business. whatever it is, I don't give my numbers to strangers.
Aiya lan tao hua... hahaha thats what I told TS.....
I was rushing for time one saturday afternoon and I hopped into a taxi. Taxi driver chatted with me and then I was saying how hard it is to get taxi on weekday night on Orchard road, recounting one incident I had.
As the conversation goes, I don't know how, it just lead on and then he kind of mention I am a nice person. As usual I jokingly say how does he know just be talking to me for 10 mins. And then I jokingly say if he knows how to read fortune why dont he tell me when will I get promotion or find someone settle down. He then look at me and say I dress well blablabla... and then suddenly he ask for my name card. I said I dont have and he wanted my number. er of cos I didn't give.
Strange.. need it for his buisness.. since he told me that he does have some business. whatever it is, I don't give my numbers to strangers.
Aiya lan tao hua... hahaha thats what I told TS.....
the straw?
The straw that broke the camel's back finally appear?
hmmmm, while going through the internal posting, neigbour noted something and a few seconds later I was at her desk and she pointed to me something. Hmm what a discovery we have. Minutes later the few of us are saying: unfair.
What happen? We came to realise my boss posting for the new headcount has a job grade up to one grade higher than us so we are not too happy about it. We do not know who the person is going to be, what grade will he or she come in at. But the fact that she post up to one grade higher means that the role can be up to that grade which means whatever we are doing now can be at that grade.
Of cos we are not happy. All the more I wasnt happy since the forcast pievce that I have been doing close to 2 years is orignially done at a grade higher. :(
anyway I found myself kind of immune. I think the heart is dead.
My boss is hmm I don't know what word to use to describe her. She can tell my collegue who is rotating into another role that I am suppose to take over some of his stuff but yet she never tell me. I had to find this out from my collegue. Now anyway last week I told her I can't handle it.
I been thinking and thinking and decide to say no. Because I realy do not have any bandwidth anymore, qtr end has always been a challenge for me. She must have think I am a super woman. Nah since someone has got more bandwidth I shall let her have more exposure then.
So true enough, my boss approach her.
I don't know why but I think I am losing my respect for her as a boss. So many things, and incidents... I know I shouldn't say this but really I don't know what has she done to fight for us. What has she done to protect us. What has she done beside ensuring everything looks good on the outside.
hmmmm, while going through the internal posting, neigbour noted something and a few seconds later I was at her desk and she pointed to me something. Hmm what a discovery we have. Minutes later the few of us are saying: unfair.
What happen? We came to realise my boss posting for the new headcount has a job grade up to one grade higher than us so we are not too happy about it. We do not know who the person is going to be, what grade will he or she come in at. But the fact that she post up to one grade higher means that the role can be up to that grade which means whatever we are doing now can be at that grade.
Of cos we are not happy. All the more I wasnt happy since the forcast pievce that I have been doing close to 2 years is orignially done at a grade higher. :(
anyway I found myself kind of immune. I think the heart is dead.
My boss is hmm I don't know what word to use to describe her. She can tell my collegue who is rotating into another role that I am suppose to take over some of his stuff but yet she never tell me. I had to find this out from my collegue. Now anyway last week I told her I can't handle it.
I been thinking and thinking and decide to say no. Because I realy do not have any bandwidth anymore, qtr end has always been a challenge for me. She must have think I am a super woman. Nah since someone has got more bandwidth I shall let her have more exposure then.
So true enough, my boss approach her.
I don't know why but I think I am losing my respect for her as a boss. So many things, and incidents... I know I shouldn't say this but really I don't know what has she done to fight for us. What has she done to protect us. What has she done beside ensuring everything looks good on the outside.
Monday, April 12, 2010
Blessing continues..
to the undeserving ones which includes me :)
Anyway I just want to get this off my chest. Allow me to bitch abit. There I was going into office at 9 plus. Yes I went in late but thats because I had a call at 7am and I take it from home. And before I have the chance to warm my seat, Miss E started pinging me non stop.
She asked me to help to check one of her profiles and mention things like:" xxxxxxx....., If not you say I do wrongly :(" And she ask if I can talk to her.
Before I have the chance to tell her to hold on the call and allow me to get back to her later, she already started calling me :( arrrgg... I am so tired from all the OT I did for the whole week plus with all the training that I deliver I have no extra time for myself.
Anyway I found myself repeating what I told her the day before. Do this step followed by the next step. And then she started telling me: You told me during last month close to do this step this month".
I went stunned. Yes stunned. Why? Yes I did tell her to do this step 2 this month but thats because she ask me when can she do step 2. And it is correct to do step 2 this month. But how on earth would I know she did step 1 wrongly. She didn't ask me how to do step 1. Step 1 is a basic which everyone should know, she has been with the team for 1/.5 years ++. Of cos I have to assume she knows all this basic step.
I don't know why it never come accros to her a simple qn: How to trigger step 2. Its so obvious come on, there is a tab fr this tab 2 and she can see it clearly. If she can't, she ought to have her eyesight checked.
A crude way of saying is, she never use her common sense and brain to work.
I don't know am I suppose to take a spoon and feed her every mouthful of food. why didn't anyway handheld me when I was new ? life is unfair.
Anyway I was pissed off early in the morning but I recovered soon.
Grace Grace. Since I decided to bless her and teach her, I shall continue to include her in my training. If she can't receive this blessing, too bad.
I am going to close my door soon ahhaha. Sorry not that i am unhelpful but I am seroulsy busy and tired too. I need to recharge too.
Anyway I just want to get this off my chest. Allow me to bitch abit. There I was going into office at 9 plus. Yes I went in late but thats because I had a call at 7am and I take it from home. And before I have the chance to warm my seat, Miss E started pinging me non stop.
She asked me to help to check one of her profiles and mention things like:" xxxxxxx....., If not you say I do wrongly :(" And she ask if I can talk to her.
Before I have the chance to tell her to hold on the call and allow me to get back to her later, she already started calling me :( arrrgg... I am so tired from all the OT I did for the whole week plus with all the training that I deliver I have no extra time for myself.
Anyway I found myself repeating what I told her the day before. Do this step followed by the next step. And then she started telling me: You told me during last month close to do this step this month".
I went stunned. Yes stunned. Why? Yes I did tell her to do this step 2 this month but thats because she ask me when can she do step 2. And it is correct to do step 2 this month. But how on earth would I know she did step 1 wrongly. She didn't ask me how to do step 1. Step 1 is a basic which everyone should know, she has been with the team for 1/.5 years ++. Of cos I have to assume she knows all this basic step.
I don't know why it never come accros to her a simple qn: How to trigger step 2. Its so obvious come on, there is a tab fr this tab 2 and she can see it clearly. If she can't, she ought to have her eyesight checked.
A crude way of saying is, she never use her common sense and brain to work.
I don't know am I suppose to take a spoon and feed her every mouthful of food. why didn't anyway handheld me when I was new ? life is unfair.
Anyway I was pissed off early in the morning but I recovered soon.
Grace Grace. Since I decided to bless her and teach her, I shall continue to include her in my training. If she can't receive this blessing, too bad.
I am going to close my door soon ahhaha. Sorry not that i am unhelpful but I am seroulsy busy and tired too. I need to recharge too.
Friday, April 9, 2010
Hello Apr..
Mar is definitely a good month that I will remember. Ah I better start to scrap my 2010 book. I wanted to do that for 2009 but didn't manage. So this time round I better do it cos I wanted to record Mar especially.
Jan---
hmmm what happen, honestly I can't really remember. I need Ginko nuts, bad memory :p. Well well, let me think, all I can recall now is I think Feb is a scrary month because of work. The new accounting standard that my company is adopting. Imagine we are the one of the 2 companies pioneering this, leading this new effort. Good for sales guys, good for company but poor we.. who are back end people doing all the dirty work.
Feb-
Last min decide to go to Cambodia. Fly out on chu san. Forget about work , while all the folks are busy trying to work out all the new accounting stds, I am enjoying in Cambodia :p. What is work.. who cares.. Anyway I know when I am back,I will be in trouble cos its closing time. True enough, I came back on sat and start working non stop. :(
On sunday got to call up my collegue cos i realise I don't know what my boss wants. yah she send panicks down to all of us and she is not firm changing her mind. Fickle minded . Sigh. Poor us
Mar-
A wonderful month. Though I decide to take a break from serving since Feb due to work, but I am still serving the lord out of rest. Pray for my pal's sister. And amazingly both of them receive christ during their first visit to Church. I didnt know till my pal's second visit to the church and she told me. Praise the lord.
So happy till I teared :) If only my parents are saved, still waiting for their salvation and it will happen.
A great testimony, my pal told me her sis rightfully need to be in ICU after her surgery but nope she didn't need to sta in ICU. Praise the lord, she save the ICU ward $$$. I am sure she will be in no time recover from her wounds.
Oh ya I pass to her sis my ipod. just want to let her listen to the sermons. If its going to bless people, I will do that. Kind of very unlike me, i think in the past I will not do that. sorry folks, I listen to ipod almost daily its my daily companion for my commute time to work, so you can imagine how heavily reliant I am on this.
But well lord is good, during this time, I am stil surving well. I on my bible, Timesl, daily bread, my scrapbooking magzines, whatever I can lay my hands on :)
Oh ya more revelating by chewing the lord's words :)
Soemhow I decide to be nicer to Preggy. Opps sorry I better call her miss E here. Well I even offer to include her in my training to my new collegue. My collegues are thinking I am crazy after her actions.
Hmm did I mention what she did lately
When my boss was here just before CNY. Apparently she had brought her baby to visit her just before she flew back to Sidney. Now why don't she bring the baby to the office since no one except me had seen her baby.
How did we find out? Its just by chance one of us discover..Now what do you think of this action.
and there are more things that she has been doing..............
Well I told her the other day since she keep saying her exposure is little so she dont knwo how to do this , do that. I said why dont she ask to take over a whole region like anyone of us. Out came all sort of reasons.... All along my belief is always: On the job training. If you are expose, you will learn
So even though I am now teaching her, I can teach 101 things, if she does not get herself expose, I guarantee she will forget.
Apr..... to be continue, cos i need to play with Jesus in lalal land now. have been working late and having early morning meeting lately.. Tough apr..sob.....
Jan---
hmmm what happen, honestly I can't really remember. I need Ginko nuts, bad memory :p. Well well, let me think, all I can recall now is I think Feb is a scrary month because of work. The new accounting standard that my company is adopting. Imagine we are the one of the 2 companies pioneering this, leading this new effort. Good for sales guys, good for company but poor we.. who are back end people doing all the dirty work.
Feb-
Last min decide to go to Cambodia. Fly out on chu san. Forget about work , while all the folks are busy trying to work out all the new accounting stds, I am enjoying in Cambodia :p. What is work.. who cares.. Anyway I know when I am back,I will be in trouble cos its closing time. True enough, I came back on sat and start working non stop. :(
On sunday got to call up my collegue cos i realise I don't know what my boss wants. yah she send panicks down to all of us and she is not firm changing her mind. Fickle minded . Sigh. Poor us
Mar-
A wonderful month. Though I decide to take a break from serving since Feb due to work, but I am still serving the lord out of rest. Pray for my pal's sister. And amazingly both of them receive christ during their first visit to Church. I didnt know till my pal's second visit to the church and she told me. Praise the lord.
So happy till I teared :) If only my parents are saved, still waiting for their salvation and it will happen.
A great testimony, my pal told me her sis rightfully need to be in ICU after her surgery but nope she didn't need to sta in ICU. Praise the lord, she save the ICU ward $$$. I am sure she will be in no time recover from her wounds.
Oh ya I pass to her sis my ipod. just want to let her listen to the sermons. If its going to bless people, I will do that. Kind of very unlike me, i think in the past I will not do that. sorry folks, I listen to ipod almost daily its my daily companion for my commute time to work, so you can imagine how heavily reliant I am on this.
But well lord is good, during this time, I am stil surving well. I on my bible, Timesl, daily bread, my scrapbooking magzines, whatever I can lay my hands on :)
Oh ya more revelating by chewing the lord's words :)
Soemhow I decide to be nicer to Preggy. Opps sorry I better call her miss E here. Well I even offer to include her in my training to my new collegue. My collegues are thinking I am crazy after her actions.
Hmm did I mention what she did lately
When my boss was here just before CNY. Apparently she had brought her baby to visit her just before she flew back to Sidney. Now why don't she bring the baby to the office since no one except me had seen her baby.
How did we find out? Its just by chance one of us discover..Now what do you think of this action.
and there are more things that she has been doing..............
Well I told her the other day since she keep saying her exposure is little so she dont knwo how to do this , do that. I said why dont she ask to take over a whole region like anyone of us. Out came all sort of reasons.... All along my belief is always: On the job training. If you are expose, you will learn
So even though I am now teaching her, I can teach 101 things, if she does not get herself expose, I guarantee she will forget.
Apr..... to be continue, cos i need to play with Jesus in lalal land now. have been working late and having early morning meeting lately.. Tough apr..sob.....
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)