Blessing continues..

to the undeserving ones which includes me :)

Anyway I just want to get this off my chest. Allow me to bitch abit. There I was going into office at 9 plus. Yes I went in late but thats because I had a call at 7am and I take it from home. And before I have the chance to warm my seat, Miss E started pinging me non stop.

She asked me to help to check one of her profiles and mention things like:" xxxxxxx....., If not you say I do wrongly :(" And she ask if I can talk to her.

Before I have the chance to tell her to hold on the call and allow me to get back to her later, she already started calling me :( arrrgg... I am so tired from all the OT I did for the whole week plus with all the training that I deliver I have no extra time for myself.

Anyway I found myself repeating what I told her the day before. Do this step followed by the next step. And then she started telling me: You told me during last month close to do this step this month".

I went stunned. Yes stunned. Why? Yes I did tell her to do this step 2 this month but thats because she ask me when can she do step 2. And it is correct to do step 2 this month. But how on earth would I know she did step 1 wrongly. She didn't ask me how to do step 1. Step 1 is a basic which everyone should know, she has been with the team for 1/.5 years ++. Of cos I have to assume she knows all this basic step.

I don't know why it never come accros to her a simple qn: How to trigger step 2. Its so obvious come on, there is a tab fr this tab 2 and she can see it clearly. If she can't, she ought to have her eyesight checked.

A crude way of saying is, she never use her common sense and brain to work.

I don't know am I suppose to take a spoon and feed her every mouthful of food. why didn't anyway handheld me when I was new ? life is unfair.

Anyway I was pissed off early in the morning but I recovered soon.

Grace Grace. Since I decided to bless her and teach her, I shall continue to include her in my training. If she can't receive this blessing, too bad.

I am going to close my door soon ahhaha. Sorry not that i am unhelpful but I am seroulsy busy and tired too. I need to recharge too.

Hello Apr..

Mar is definitely a good month that I will remember. Ah I better start to scrap my 2010 book. I wanted to do that for 2009 but didn't manage. So this time round I better do it cos I wanted to record Mar especially.

Jan---
hmmm what happen, honestly I can't really remember. I need Ginko nuts, bad memory :p. Well well, let me think, all I can recall now is I think Feb is a scrary month because of work. The new accounting standard that my company is adopting. Imagine we are the one of the 2 companies pioneering this, leading this new effort. Good for sales guys, good for company but poor we.. who are back end people doing all the dirty work.

Feb-
Last min decide to go to Cambodia. Fly out on chu san. Forget about work , while all the folks are busy trying to work out all the new accounting stds, I am enjoying in Cambodia :p. What is work.. who cares.. Anyway I know when I am back,I will be in trouble cos its closing time. True enough, I came back on sat and start working non stop. :(

On sunday got to call up my collegue cos i realise I don't know what my boss wants. yah she send panicks down to all of us and she is not firm changing her mind. Fickle minded . Sigh. Poor us

Mar-
A wonderful month. Though I decide to take a break from serving since Feb due to work, but I am still serving the lord out of rest. Pray for my pal's sister. And amazingly both of them receive christ during their first visit to Church. I didnt know till my pal's second visit to the church and she told me. Praise the lord.

So happy till I teared :) If only my parents are saved, still waiting for their salvation and it will happen.

A great testimony, my pal told me her sis rightfully need to be in ICU after her surgery but nope she didn't need to sta in ICU. Praise the lord, she save the ICU ward $$$. I am sure she will be in no time recover from her wounds.

Oh ya I pass to her sis my ipod. just want to let her listen to the sermons. If its going to bless people, I will do that. Kind of very unlike me, i think in the past I will not do that. sorry folks, I listen to ipod almost daily its my daily companion for my commute time to work, so you can imagine how heavily reliant I am on this.

But well lord is good, during this time, I am stil surving well. I on my bible, Timesl, daily bread, my scrapbooking magzines, whatever I can lay my hands on :)

Oh ya more revelating by chewing the lord's words :)

Soemhow I decide to be nicer to Preggy. Opps sorry I better call her miss E here. Well I even offer to include her in my training to my new collegue. My collegues are thinking I am crazy after her actions.

Hmm did I mention what she did lately

When my boss was here just before CNY. Apparently she had brought her baby to visit her just before she flew back to Sidney. Now why don't she bring the baby to the office since no one except me had seen her baby.

How did we find out? Its just by chance one of us discover..Now what do you think of this action.

and there are more things that she has been doing..............

Well I told her the other day since she keep saying her exposure is little so she dont knwo how to do this , do that. I said why dont she ask to take over a whole region like anyone of us. Out came all sort of reasons.... All along my belief is always: On the job training. If you are expose, you will learn

So even though I am now teaching her, I can teach 101 things, if she does not get herself expose, I guarantee she will forget.

Apr..... to be continue, cos i need to play with Jesus in lalal land now. have been working late and having early morning meeting lately.. Tough apr..sob.....

a Blessing in disguise?

May that this will be a blessing in disguise.

Out of the blue, did I realise I have to cover my collegue. I only realise when he arrnage for a handeover meeting and he told me that boss had said so. er Boss didn't tell me. Shake head. Where is the basic courteousy?

At least she has to inform me right. And when i seek her advise for something today, she mention about the new person must be comfortable. Er so am I comfortable to handle this piece of work, forecast + transiting, + training+backup+ shadow...

Was sad in the evening my North Korea trip got cancelled. sad. .. was looking forward to days of rest and no outside communication ... :( and this was suppose to be the last trip with SJ before she move to KL for good.

May all this all be blessing in disguise

I decided

Well I am kind of disappointed with my boss. The way she answered my 2 qns basically just tell me she is not doing anything for the team. Our grading is an issue, she says she does acknoledged this disparity between Apac/europe/US, her boss also acknolwedges and yet they are doing nothing about this. She even tell me for some of us, we would probably be a grade higher if we are in US. :(

Ok fine, basicaly her response answer this question from the Pulse. It goes something like are employees being rewarded/recognised fairly ?

She wasn't happy about me asking about the salary issue. I told her: Work is a means for most of us. If I use the Singlish way it would be : abu then, u think I free labour is it. HAHA just trying to inject some humour here.

Anyway I guess she only want solutions and not questions but these are fundamental questions that she does need to know that the team is not happy. The others does not ask her does not means they are happy.

Anyway I been thinking about this for a while and I decide to let go. It dawn on me that I been doing the forecast since Aug/sept 08. Ya she did recognise my effort just lately by giving me a cap award. I was kind of surprise but again this recogntion probably came too late. She only realise this last Aug when I decide to go on leave and basically I just bk the tour without getting her approval. I was so bold then.

Well nobody in the team want to be the backup for this tough job so I have to just go on leave to force her to think of something. In the end she back me up and realise is a tough job.

Yes I told her lately that I would no longer want to handle this forecast. I been thinking since this ia next level job and she hasn't recognise me. What is all the crap about in order to move up, u need to do more, need to do this need to do that. All the crap.

Whatever she says rules. Nothing please her. So well this piece of job shall rest with whoever she finds. Yup the new manager.

Yes I want my freedom back. I want my month 3 my quarter end to be free. Gone with the forecast. I want my time, my health back :)


Praise the lord that my boss reaction is surprising calm. My collegues were shock too. Anyway like what I said, its a career suicidal move. To take one big step back. If she wants to use this against me saying this is the reason for me not able to get promotion. So be it.

I don't care anymore. I only need to please the lord.

AS for preggy, seems that the team is getting piss off with her. I am too in a way. But I need to learn to bless her. I don't have to like her but I will try to love her like what Jesus did since He has forgiven all of us.

Its gonna be tough. I need to tell neighbour this too. To try to instill into her.

Oh yes talking about neighbour. Dear lord, forgive me for judging her in the past. She has since turn so lovely. She sometimes make me coffee and on thrusday she is so sweet to have call me to ask if I need an umbrella. I feel so loved and so touched.

I confess to her lately that I used to dislike her for making me cry. heee

am enjoying the daily prayers that I have with her now.. ok need to zzz tomorwo is a long day

Attack?

I was kind of surprise this morning. Feel tummy a little unwell but still go to office. on the way to work, I broke out in cold sweat,and feel chest is like restrained. I end up alighting at Dover, find a toilet.

Decide to continue to work but still weak so at Bouna vista i cross over the platform and went straight back home.

Feel much better at home, Decide i do not need a doctor. Come afternoon buay tong le.. ok go see doctor. er.. 2pm there is still this so many patients and i need to wait like 1 hour, clinic close at 3pm. goodness

Walk further to another clinic as I am too lazy to go back home and come down again.

Not much crowd but gosh the doctor is "Super efficient" Each patient on ag 5 mins or less. I really dislike coming to this dcotor and was so happy when the one near my home is open See one is so crowded because the fees are cheaper and the doctor is quite a nice chap. This one, i really dont know if he can really test my temperature with the thermoter scan place not even near my forehead. horrible doctor.


wonder why i suddenly fall ill, because my menses is coming? But no lei, i dont normally encountered this.

can only conclude is devil attack. Pass my ipod full of sermons to a fren's sister to encouage her before her surgery this thursday. was reading Joel Osteen book and have more revelations. hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

Well I am the healed of the lord. Am alwaYs am..

Happy and sad

Too many things happen today. Early in the morning was kind of sad over some stuff, well its about what else but friendship. Indirectly I was affected and I felt sad about it.

Treat my dear TS for lunch cos she is really unhappy lately. Nice lunchie.. hee hee and we have revivial of childhood stuff at one of the shops around ang siang :) Lovely place

Afternoon I got affected by friendship again, sad. I think I should not be emotional over friends stuff. Since I cannot control it, I should let them be. It just sadden me cos all are my friends and I want them to be happy. to me is simply misunderstanding. Nobody is at fault really. Its just communication which got misunderstood.

Very often we like to form our own opinion and form our own judgement and there are certain expectations on people. Any events that went out of this alignment will cause disappointment, and misunderstandings.

Sad to see friendship end up in this manner. Why can't we have the kids' big heart forgive and forget.

Ask a friend on this and he says because we are not kids anymore.OK thats an answer.

Daer jesus, keep these people well. I know with your love, everything is possible. Its not gonna be easy but if you can let me experience the wonders of this forgiveness, they too shall be able to expereince this too :)

shucks I got back beatrice bday and I can't find it now.. eh oh i cross my fingers that I kept it in office. Too absent minded lately.

Nwo i better remmber to go for my scan on Wednesday. Doctor says she is not too comfortable and insist on me to go for a scan. I better be a good girl and go for it.

Everything shall be fine. Amen

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