五月三十一

回家途中,想起某些事，心情莫名跌入谷底。
最后一排的搭客，你们太吵了。
反复听着一首古典乐章。
。。。。。。只能逃避。

Why?

Why are people behaving so strange and weird. Where are their empathy. These are the thoughts that gone through my mind when I happen to take a glimpse of the newspaper which the passenger next to me was reading this morning.

People are actually flaming the poor gal who caught H1N1, saying she shouldn't have gone to US.One even suggest to sue her. I can't help but to feel sorry for the gal. Are people so naive to think that even if the gal did not go to US, nobody will get it. These are air borne disease and we can't simply prevent it. Even if the government decide to banned all people from leaving the country, that doesn't mean no one will get it.

Well as of now, there are 3 new cases.

I am wondering where are the empathy of people. Was reading newspaper the other day and one lady was saying someone attempt to steal her mobile phone on a public transport and no one help her. Sad....

Lately I am facing some challenges at work and I thougth I conquer it 2 years plus back and now it comes back again via a new person. Goodness. Its really human nature, when you did a good job, nobody praise you. But one small little oversight, and people will pick on you. All your goodwork is wipe out just by that little mistake. How sad. (Thats why the lord says don't depend on self effort, depend on the lord's grace)


Now let's say your mum cook a dish, in the dish itself, it contains all your favourite stuff, however there is just one item that you dislike. Now do you start to grumble to your mum on that item that you don't like, or do you praise your mum for that wonderful dish.

Humans always tend to pick at the negative side and overlook the positive side. We should all start to focus on the good side.

So blur...

Am blur as sotong(now why do we use blur as sotong this phrase, is sotong realy blur?) lately .

For instance, I actually forgot to alight when I went to work the other day, and alight at the next stop. That's not so bad as it still walkable distance., But a week later, I actually alight a stop earlier. goodness that I can't walk to office....

This week, I actualy wear a pair of black heels to work, only to discover I wore a mismatch pair of heels. Hmm no wonder I feel so weird and well God is good,I disccover it when I was stuck in the middle of the road when I didn't beat the green light. At least I haven't walk far yet, still can go back home to change ...

And a few days ago, I miss my bus stop while going home. I must be losting my focus. haiz.... time for a break.

谢谢你, 圣榆

好几次与你矢之交臂 :( 谢谢你的留言。谢谢你提醒了两年前的我是开朗的。今早看到了你的留言，想想从今年开始，我好像不像从前那样了。

我们都努力，希望像你说说的离幸近一点。一定会的。加油！！！
真的好想你，有时会想你在做什么呢？你要好好照顾自己。希望那日我们会相遇。好高兴能够认识你：）那天还在看那张唯一拥有你的照片。

You really are a sweet gal, I bet lots of guys are chasing after you now

My altered Canvas

My altered canvas..... i like the family one the best..... followed by the Adored piece...

Totoro Bento

Hmm finally make the Ttotoro Bento what a mess I did . With my sis shaking her head at me, and joining me later. Think she makes it better than me haha.

could you tell the below stuff are mushroom. yup made with tomatotes and hot dogs.






The last pic is my sis's creation.. cute...

a Not so nice week

Yesterday wasn't a peaceful day for me. I decide to settle the issue with the gal so I organise a call, saying nicely something like this: Since XXX is new, lets go through the proces and see how we can collorate and improve the process."

Read:The main intention is to THRASH it out. haha

But who knows.. 魔高一仗 (sorry to use this word, thats what I felt yesterday) , she invited a whole clan of others to join in when my meeting invite is only for her and her manager. WHA.. imagine my shock when I see this. I think is another at least 8 or so people who are from another team, and I absoultely has got no issues with that team.

Bleah... no choice lor. how to turn down the rest including a controler.. horrble
might as well feed them with the process and clarify that item is not my responsibility at all.

hohoohoo

all because of her , I broke my big cup, my big pooh bear cup. :( while i was multitasking on a concall and replying her email :

As I was about to office at 6 plus, I got a urgent call form my HK contorller. Arrrg.. these HK sales team are terrible, can't meet their goals and blame it on me for not giving them the bookings. horrible terrible. And i got to write a nice email to explain.......hate this.. what has bookings got to do with me when I am suppose to handle revenue.

:(

Being thinking...

Why are some people always so pushy.
Why are some people always so kind
Why are some people always so patient
Why are some people always so kan cheong (read :impatient)
Why are some people always taking advantage of people.....
Why... .... Why.. Why

Because in this world there are all sort of people and no one is perfect. These people are the ones who causes our life moments to be happy and sad.

Lately I managed to piss someone off (Ok in her view, she must have felt that, as for me, nah I didn't do anything wrong cos in the first place, its not my responsibility at all) And she piss me off these few days, I really do not know what she wants. So hard to please. I almost vomit blood.

I was telling someone, now I am beginning to like her manager ( no wonder birds of the black feather flock together) That someone leaughs. At least her manager is more mature (ok just that little % not huge). Respect needs to be earned,and obviously both of them did not earn any from me. I don't care a damn (pardon my language) about their titles.

Someday I will be the one having the last laugh, that day will come. And the "full colors will be shown to them". 老虎不发威,你当它是病猫.

WAtch out ! I wont scream at you dont worry. I probably will only schedule a meeting and pull out that R&R piece written some time back and show you whose responsiblity it is.

Dread

Dreading some stuff........

Stupid for you

I love her vocals. Pretty and talented too...

Enjoy this song.........this song is quite sad actually but true for a gal.




Stupid for you by Marie Digby

It's not everyday
That I meet a person quite like you
Perfect every way
I finally found the nerve to confess that it's you - that I want
I don't care if I act a fool
I would damn near beg for you
Set aside, all my pride
So don't keep me hanging here
Cause this girl is falling stupid for you...
Oh, oh stupid for you...

The proper thing to do
Is for me to act like a lady and wait
For you to make the first move

But I don't think you're getting the point
That it's you - that I want
I don't care if I act a fool
I would damn near beg for you
Put aside, all my pride
So don't keep me hanging here
Cause this girl is falling stupid for you
Oh, oh stupid for you

Why's it always feel like I am
Chasing love when nothing's there
And here I go just making the same mistakes...

I've fallen stupid for you...
Oh, oh stupid for you...
Oh, oh, oh, oh

My sis says:

She is now stress to sleep with me. Hahaha. Why...
She was relating to me 2 incidents just before we slept last night......
1) She woke up in middle of one particular night to find me holding her fingers. Er I really don't know what happen. So I ask what she did. She said she continue to sleep...

2)One particular night, she found me talking in my sleep. So she asked me: What you talking. Guess what !! I actually replied her: I am just sleep talking. And after that I fell asleep again. She found it so hilarious that I actualy replied her.

If you asked me what happen both nights, I can't recall. I think I am too stressed :( that I have such strange behaviours displayed.. eeeeks

Dear lord, I do want to sleep like a log, sleep peacefully. I am weary...................

天冷就离开...

天冷就离开,天暖就回来。回来时，会有人迎接我吗？

翻阅报章，读了一篇报导，有感而发。。。。。。

I think I am

allergic to work... I can't imagine going back to work tomorrow after a few days break. I think my email mailbodx must have shut down. nah.. cant be bothered I don't want to log in to clear my email . just enjoy my rest.

I was taking this course of anitbotics and I think its causing my gastic juic to be over active now.Causing me constant hunger. Ya becoming a fat pig now. I forgot to tell the doc that to give me any anitbodics that will causes me gastric. Totally forgetten I got gastric problem

Well today I decide to dress nice nice make myself happy . Its been a long time since I put on make up. Just so tired and can't be bothered. I dress shabbily to work everyday. Seriously.

Think everyone so shocked to see me wearing a dress go to Stef's baby shower and to church. HAHA. oh yes Stef's baby is so cute and adorable. He has the active smart look too. :)

Today's srmon is so enriching to me. Basic concepts but really touch me. Grace is the foundation and I ought to rememember it by heart.

my adorable Newphew... that makes me

luff non stop.. here i am trying to control my laughter... he is just simply fuNNy and cute. full of imaginations, one moment trying to be garung guni, policeman, fireman .. to be contineined tomorrow cos i am tired.. and i want him to sleep too

Walk the life

http://www.dashpoem movie.com/


my CGL send me this.. worth spending a moment to reflect how did you spend your dashes

The revelation

I have this thought that shoot me across during Sunday's service. On Tuesday when my neigbour is back from MC , i told her this. "Lets not worry about the Preggy anymore, let's not check on her work anymore. She don't report to us, and its not our duty to check on her. We have enough work and burden and let's not add another burden onto us. If its so happens that she miss out on completing her stuff, so be it. If its get escalated to our boss, so be it. Maybe thats a way that the lord wants to let boss knows."

And she agrees with me.

Both of us have been thinking if we should highlight this to our boss and both of us end up never let our boss know. Its not in our nature to feedback this negative sort of stuff. So what happens.

While covering her, I uncovered billings that she never trigger, certain revenue that she never recognised. So I do a mass clean up and set the process right for some misalighment( I still wondering why she never highlight this hmm when I had told her what the right process should be)

Anyway when she's back on part time, she actually miss out certain reports. When both me and my neigbour had reminded her and she replied : THanks for the reminder")
Imagine my shock when Neighbour (for some reason she went to check the report) discover she never complete a report. That was 8pm plus on a Friday night when I am travelling back home from work :( Well she managed to get her on the phone and complete it.

During closing time, for some reason(sixth sense), I get a coordinator of some reports to check if she completed a certain report. Yes you guess it, she never compeltes it. I got no choice and had to sms her even though she is off that day. When I see her online I ping her and nicely remind her: How about having a checklist?" Guess whats the reply: " I have a checklist".

er....... thats my reaction speechless. The next day neighbour ping me and I can tell she is pissed, Preggy had miss out another report.............haiz... what can we say...

Anyway I decided, not to check on her work anymore. It's none of my biz. Its only I do not want my boss to be put down by others that me and neighbour went to check to make sure all things are completed.

And I don't want to cover her when she is on maternity leave. Never... Never Never....................... I don't want. And boss pls don't ask me. I had enough, I am tired.......

Dear lord

Make me a better person, guide me by you holy spirtis in the areas of my immaturity and guide me to be a better equip person. In jesus name amen

走过

http://www.imeem.com/redclyffe/music/B_BR7h47/kit-chan-zhou-guo/
Sorry lazy to type in Chinese. Was listening to this song on my way home yesterday. Kit's vocal never fall me.. Nice song.

谢谢你给我的所有
走过 也许就足够
走过 也许就足够
快乐悲伤都收在心中的角落

I think the lord plan everyone in our life for a purpose, I still don't know why he came along the way disrupted my quiet life for a few months. Well thats all in the past now.. I am sure God is telling me something, something which I am still trying to figure out, Well the lord will reveal one of these days.


Just like he place Jolene sis in my path on Monday. If I hadn't forgot to bring the mail out during lunch I wont have gone out in the late afternoon. If Jolene sis hadn't gone to the clinic along that road, we won't have meet each other. I know that God is good, HE had use Jolene Sis to tell me something. Jolene sis I will take care and love myself more.



走过 Kit chan
临别此刻 我站在街头
这个城市可以没有我
路过的风 吹得人心痛
我不想在这里过冬
走过 也许就足够
眷恋褪色的承诺 只会更寂寞
错过 就不要回头
让我放开你的手 至少把我自己带走
我们有过 快乐和歉疚
一直以为这就是生活
我想爱情可以更自由
谢谢你给我的所有
走过 也许就足够
眷恋褪色的承诺 只会更寂寞
错过 就不要回头
让我放开你的手 至少把我自己带走
走过 也许就足够
快乐悲伤都收在心中的角落
错过 就不要回头
忘了相爱的理由
是否就能勇敢分手
是否就能勇敢分手

I feel like.....

I can collapse any moment. Since last Wed's incident, I just feel that I can no longer tong le.

Bump into Jolene sis this afternoon, She tell me lord is good to her and blessed her with beautiful children and she feels like she is wondering in the desert for 2 years but she knows the lord is there for her.

Suddenly she tell me this: 要好好爱互自己.Love yourself more. She must have sense my weariness... What she said really strikes down into my heart...........

Ok I will remember this. Tomorrow is the day. But first I need wisdom from the lord to plan how to tell my boss. hmm best is i dont need to open my mouth.

Weary

Think weariness can kill people. Maybe I will be one of these people.. nah.. the lord will keep me safe as long as I know my limits.. I know I have reach it. Wisdom says rest.. Its has come to a point that I can't even rest properly. Wake up automatically in the middle of the night.

I do need rest.. yes rest...........

Getting absent minded

Think I am too weary till I am becoming absent minded. Guess what I found in my bag when I was packing my stuff to go out. My toothbrush and toothpaste in my pouch adn why did I bring them back from office on Thursday. I must have dump them inside my bag after brushing my teeth in office when I should have place it back into my office cabinet arrrgg.. dumb.

And on the same day I brought my Precious Moments umbrella out and now I can't remember if I left it in office or did I bring it back home but had left it on bus. All I know is I don't have it with me at home. :( My lovely umbrella where are ya..............

The other day when I was working, I feel that I can collapse any time. I feel the fainting spell and before I knew it I can feel teh surrounding spinnning around me. I stood up and feel myself walking in zig zag. Tried to rest but can't sleep. So after a while I went to bath and I literally walk in zig zag manner. I can feel my hands numbing too..............eh that night I was realy uncormoftable haiz......... I feel I can just collapse any moment.