Cry me a river by Susan Boyle

When I hear Susan sing I dreamed a dream, I teared. she is so talented.
Here's a song she did for a charity much earlier. Now I am wondering what am I gifted in?

Pressing on

This is what I am telling myself now... I dont know how I survive since Jan till now, its just amazing. I know the lord is my strength :) how else could you explain this.

Sun I work till pretty late, and am so tired. My sis was also so tired after taking care of the 2 little ones. Both of us forgot to wake up, yes seriously . I just press the alarm clock and forgot about it. 10 minutes to 7 I was woken up by phone ringing. I wake my sis up, she pick up the call: hello hello no response.

I thank the angel who wake both of us up.

Tuesday eh oh.. I totally forgot the 9am call. Thank god, Nelson realise we are busy and postpone the call. I didn't even have time to review the documents. I stay till almost midnight trying to work out my forecast and tieing the database. Anything that is manual to me is prone to human error. And I make stupid mistake as usual. Mum was asking me if there is anyone that stay with me and if I was afraid. Come on. Sorry mum, give me a break, I only just want to bath and sleep, Pls don't ask me who else is in the office. Its only me, and there is nothing to be scare of i only just want to finish my work. Pls dont ask me to eat dinner. i had maggie mee in office. I got no appetite, no energy to have dinner.

Wed reach office before 8. I feel like I didn't sleep at all. My whole brain was just too active the whole night after more than 12 hours of brain cracking activities. Make a few hiccups.. week 13 I said week 3.. and oh no i am out by 0.2M.. arrgg. anyway find out where that mistake was.. dumb.. Its me who is dumb.. not scolding anyone.


I realise today i forgot to input some numbers while rushing yesterday, anyway self correct my own mistakes so the numbers should be good. I am tired... took the bus home so I can sleep. Sleep happily on the bus.. :)

uh oh.. I realise the documents I need to go thru is 48 pages long :( Leavde that for tomorow. I no more energy..

another 2 days will be weekends. .yeah... next week is another worry though. Worry abt it next week bah.. too many things for me to worry. I want a break!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I know my body is breaking up. Just see the whole face pimples, the knees, back everywhere is aching. forehead screaming fever the other day.........

我等你

was just surfing when I heard this song.. aan old song.. hmmm nice song... can we be so sha duo?

我等你 刘若英

Sometimes things don't go the way u planned

Too many things have happen lately that I start to ponder (yes again ). Sometimes things don't happen the way you planned and there is such a word "accident" yes accidents happen. Sometimes things also happen for a reason.

Like today my original plan was to go to swim, follow by church then go home buy lunch, buy baby wipes then do my work.

I wake up feeling lazy and decided not to swim, see the sun is really sunny, took out my laundry to dry. Went to church and just when I am say about 10 mins away from the church, ring ring. phone rang. My sis call from KL asking me to call my SIL as she had tried calling home and no one was at home to pick the phone up.

Immediately something creep into my head: " No, not agian, dont tell me they quarrel again, ." Tell me which couple don't quarrel. I am just too used to them that I can put them down here in this blog. when I called SIL, its : We met with an accident, Tin Tin head got hit."


Opps I rushed down the bus, suddenly losting my sense of direction got to calm myself down , took a cab down to KK. Reach there, well my poor darling is in pain. I laid my hands on him when my SIL and maid went to do X ray. Thank god, he didnt feel that pain after .

To cut the story short. Eventually he was discharge, and I ended up at another hospital as SIL and the maid had to go to another hospital as they complain of chest pains, giddiness etc etc as KK didn't have the proper facilities. Weird why did the ambulance bring them to KK in the first place.

All are fine now. :) Praise the lord.

The A&E is so strict in the 2nd hospital, allowing only one visitor for the patient. So I was stranded outside with my bro and the 2 kids.

Since I am really bored, I brought my newphew up and visit Joey Jie , since I realise that very morning that she has' t discharge yet. And she says my newphew is handsome. I also think this darling is handsome too heheh. Now I am jealous of his long eyelashes.

Life is short.......................really short................

And I am really really tired from all the rushing to and fro. When I attended 3rd service, Pastor mention about we all having taken lunch must be sleepy. I then recall I haven't ate my lunch yet. It was till night that I had my dinner thank god mummy cook early today.

And on my way home just now I saw this van with the word Bukit panjang methodist kindergarden printed on it. Suddenly my mind flash back to when I was still a 18/19 year old teenage. I met this lady on the bus and help her with the directions. She keep thanking God then to have met me. Then I didn't know anything about God, Jesus.

I was just focusing on this: Why did the old lady's children just throw her from one place to another. This old lady if I recall correctly has children in overseas and seems that she is staying from place to place. something like this.

Now I fully understand her now. She is a lady who focus on the lord. I thank the lord for her too, for coming into my life. Though then I didn't realise but today I remember le. Oh ya she is from the Bukit panjang methodist church I remember which is why the link to the van that brought me back to this memory.

How to make Totoro Creme Puffs

Check this out, this is so super duper lovely.. My fav character Totoro........

Here I am feeling so stressed, am doing my quarterly closing and I have only just finished updating the portion that I am covering for my collgues. Actually I haven't finished, but 90% done. the rest needs to follow up. And I haven't even update mine yet. Goodness and my sis send me this cute little link some hours ago.

anyway here's the link..

http://annathered.wordpress.com/2009/04/07/how-to-make-totoro-cream-puffs/

And check out the bento sets. I think there is 黑炭小鬼, per my sis, I haven't even got time to go through this web, only saw the pictures of this totoro........

can anyone tell me how to get rid of this many pimples on my face... see i am so stress up.............

Have you ever wondered...

if some of your decisions, actions are made correctly? Occasionarily or should I say very often, I ask myself that question.

sometimes I see the answer immediately, sometimes no, or never. Now I am asking myself lately if I been doing the right thing, I seriously don't know .

I guess Lord always has a answer out there , I just need to be patient. Some day I will know... I know that He will give me a answer one of these days.

Yes...

I finally did my water baptism :)
That's the news I was saying about a month ago. Oh ya my neighbor.. ok I am used to calling her that.. she is so sweet. When I shared with her this week, she is so nice and even say she wanted to attend.

unfortunately turns out her hubbie needs to do a root canal treatment and instead she sprung me a surprise on Friday. She gave me this sweet rose and this sweet little card.. she is so lovely.

God really change a person cos I really see her change. :)






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Publish Post

I dream a dream

Beautiful....

Look at the reactions of the audience and judge. Why are ugly people being despised.Hmm we are all God's children and each of us is unique and beautiful. I believe we each has a gift. By the way Susan Boyle was apparently being invited by Ophara winfrey and seeems that Simon is trying to get her a record.

Each of us also has a dream, What's your dream? My dream? ssshshh... secret

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RxPZh4AnWyk

Father

Remember turn off the ipod icon player at the bottom right hand side of my blog first before playing this ya.....





Father by Hillsong (2003)
Amazing love has won my heart
I am in awe of all You've done
You gave us Jesus and with Him
You freely give us everything

Amazing love sets me free
From all that would weigh down on me
You are my strength, my help, my friend
And my hope-life without end

Father, my Father I am so secure in You
Your perfect love
drives away all my fear

Father I love You
for You have loved me first
And I am grateful for amazing love.

Departures

I really love this cello piece. Unfortunately the sound track is still not out yet. So weird show was already screen for so long and the sound track is sitll not out :( If you hadn't watch this show go watch. I teared whiled watching this . Was touched by the love shown.

心动

Feel like vommiting blood

This is how I feel half an hour ago. This service account manager really made my blood boil. I wonder how long has he been with the company and what kind of training did he receive. He actually dare to say one piece of work is not his and is my job. I don't know should I feel thankful and happy that his and his colleuges "see me so up" (high regards/opinon of me). suddenly I am like someone who owns everything, someone who do everything. Shake head.

Actually that piece of job is when I first started with the company and is a different role entirely and I have not done that for 2 and half years.

This SAM should have given me his commission instead since he expects me to do his job. haha

Just the other day another counterpart also has a little tiff with me. Why are all these people taking granted of me? I am going to be really firm with them (hopefully I dont go soft hearted again) . Give them a inch and they want 3 inches from you. Must show them some color hahaha...

Its been tiring weeks for me, my calls are getting earlier and earlier and more and mokre work piling on me. Reaching office earlier and earlier . I gave the security guard a fright the othr day, guess he wasn't expecting anyone so early waiting :p

I want my life back..........................I am tired..... sob sob......

后来

有些人一旦错过就不在。。。。。。

Just some thoughts

Ah jun was telling me about this bejeweled game in facebook and she was hook on it. End up I also hook on it. Was asking her how did she score so high she told me this: The more I try to score higher, the more I don't get high score. My high score just came without me knowing why. These are not the exact words but meaning is there.

I was thinking about her words and the word self effort come to my mind. Alot of times we humans try so hard to do this, do that, all depending on our self efforts and we are so mightily small. Its really hard...


Time for me to learn to learn go and lean on the lord. Its really hard for me to let go of things but I will try to. Its just hard... The more I try to let go, the more it keep bouncing back onto me. All sort of ways I try, I guess its time not to depend on my ownself. Time to depend on the lord.

Dear lord, I know I can just lean onto you and you will do the rest for me. Today I am not going to think about how to let go but rather You will lead me and set me free. You know where my bondages are and how to set them free and lead me to my final destination. Amen.

Heart Envelop

This is so interesting. I will make this one of these days, but who to give, I got no idea man . Any takers?

There is part 1 and part 2.

Just feeling a little down

Don't know why, maybe PMS? With running Nose strucking (ya again, I don't know whats wrong with me lately too), I am feeling a little down now... uncontrollable sadness sitting into my heart.

I should thank god that with all my collegues falling sick, lying in hospital and I am still up and kicking, not taking a single mc. I feel sad for my collegues..

joey Jie, jia you , I am really missing you. I also missing Karen too.

Missing Sheng yu too, wondering how are you doing in Taiwan. Totally lost your contact, don't know what happen to you le.

I am also missing you too, don't know why. There is no need for a reason for everything....... Life is such.

时间流逝地太快,我抓不牢,让它溜走了。就算抓住了，又如何，它还是溜了。不是你的，就不是你的，不必强留。

Its painful

Its painful, I did it. Quite stupid some would say, but guess I did it cos I just want to stop seeing it and reminding myself of it. It hurts, really really hurts and I am hoping this would relieve me of it.

Wrong or right decision, I have no idea. I can probably only tell it in time to come. When? I don't know. Knowing my character probably thats going to take some time,


Ok don't ask me what the above means. I am allright just..... trying to come to terms, letting go of certain things.

I am feeeling..

Tired...
Seems like I got tons that I can never finish, lots of to want to do things. lots of uncompleted wishes. My time management is super lousy I think.

Reach office around 7.30am today just so I can prepare for my forever never ending forecast call. In case got any last minute items shootig my way. Thought this week I only got 3 deals + 2 watchlist items to update so I can finish within 15 mins. Gosh my counterpart has got to ask me tons of basic questions, ask me why I can't forecast it, based on shipment etc etc, why this, why that. hmmmm If I can predict this, I won't be doing this le.

I don't need to work, will be filthy disgusting rich . (Dream on.. )
After the call, my boss ping me and say that was really interrogation from them. yah I shoudl thank god my boss dial in the call, cos she don't always. At least she helps to shield me in some form or another. nah.. US folks must be getting nervous having alot of pressure so arrow shooting back to me .

Uh oh receive a email saying my Q3 numbers seem to have gone into Q4, take a look. uh oh I forgot to set a button to the right option. stupid database. sorry I really dislike anythikng that is manual and not system base. Can't imagine we actually build a database out of excel micros.. gosh... Manual==> prone to human error.

by the time i settle down its really 9 plus, hungry, went in search of food. hahah the security guard is quite a funny guy. He is the building's new sercurity guy. I asked him this morning : did you ever rest? I go home late last night, you are here, I come in early today, you are here? HAhaha I overheard something, and he caugh me giggling at him :p Pretty funny and interesting hahah..

Went to visit Karen at the hospital 12 plus rush back for a call at 2 pm. Glad that she is doing well, and will be discharge tomorow. I am startig to miss her in office le. Each time now i become the first person to reach office or I am the lonely onhe. Nobody to kaqiao, to complain.

Thank God, neighbour offer to buy me food. I cant think of anything except fish soup. thank you gal for quueing and buying back for me. My call overan to 3. Thank God auditor didnt turn up at 2.30pm. quickly eat. half way thru, phone rang. aiya auditor is here..

Can't set up the wireless for auditor somehow.. hmm and the IT is not of much help, If i remmber i am going to give them a bad assessment. Typically i never bother to feedback this time round I will try to give. They just demonstarate how "helpful" they have been. dumb.

Blur auditor, send me at least 4 files. She keep sending me the wrong samples. arrrg
waste of my time. My food is cold le.. so hungry and i went off to find soo da biscuit to eat ..

Went to visit Joey jie after work , she is going for another surgery tomororw. Hopefully this is the last surgery that she needs to go thru to patch her lungs. Abba father will keep her safe and sound and healed.

Hmm I was teling joey jie I dont mind to get E's pay whatever she is getting now, do her work.. so easy only do the portion that I cover for her only, nd thats like hmmm count within ten fingures % of my portfolio . Anyway not her fault, she is just taking extra precaution. Pray that she will be fitter and can handle more things.

I just realise all my surrounding people are sick, and thank God I have not taken a single MC this year till date.. Did I? Nope.. I always heal quickly . Actually i dont mind some mc to rest and sleep at home though ahha

by Shari Caroll

Learnt this technique while sufting. Did some cards up, but I am simply too lazy to load them up for your viewing. Let me upload when I got the mood to do it.


Inchies by Shari Caroll

Faith

Faith is to believe in Him, knowing that everything is in his palms, even though now you don't know what will happen, and whats the outcome.

Faith is being willing to trust God - turning your hopes and problems over to Him and trusting in His wisdom and knowing that somehow everything will turn out for the best. Nomatter how difficult or dark things become, there is always a light.

Just want to say

Ephiphany: Lately people around me are sick, my collegue K is going for a surgery next week. J Jie's lungs collapsed and now hospitalised. Both of them are healthy infact K is a runner. J only realise her lungs collapes when she went for her checkup. If she didn't went for checkup......... she won't know. She didn't even feel breathless................. gosh.. I told her: Thank god u went for your checkup.

Went to the hospital to visit her just now and she told me really health is more impt. I always says my thanks to God but I never totally let go of stuff like work etc etc,

Past 2 days my sis was watching this show about aircrash investigation, and I was thinking to myself, hmm what if this happen to me, what or who would I be thinking at my last moments......

Today I shall learn to let go of work.. Thankful for waht I have now, the frens I have... I told Cherie today, I don't wanna collapse at work . Not that I fear to die but rather I don't want to die in this manner. I want to go happily, it would be better that I die after I got married, watch my children grow up............hahah

Be thankful for what you have now...

Eye candy..

eh what you guys thinking ah, come on....

Was flipping my magazine when I realise basic grey has partned with Moda Fabric to release fabric for the sultry paper line. And there is urban coulture and fidgy pudding too ...............

lots of beautiful fabric, unfortunately I can't get it in sg so can only view for my own pleasure...................
http://www.unitednotions.com

Life is full of little surprises

Happy April Fools' Day!!!!!!!!!!!

No this is not April Fool joke. I just find the whole thing so funny.
See I made some christmas card for my collegues and send them to HK and Beijing last year. For HK I send to Amy gal and she never received. She even went to ask the other Amy in the HK office and still no news.

Yesterday morning, she started to ping me and tell me the whole envelop appear. I went : OMG, pls dont distribute them, this is so embrassing!! But too late, flo flor jie and her has distributed out.. Goodness and the funny thing is its April fool day today. Gosh... how funny..

Flo flor jie ping me in the afternoon and tell me what happen. Its all the wPR's fault for putting Amy's package into another person's pigeon hole and she didn't clear her pigeon hole for more than a quarter (gosh its actually 2 quarters)


Sam ping me today and thank me though he wondered why he took this long to receive it. I was so embrassed and he tell me this : Life is full of littler surprises :)

Yeah I like his mentality , must learn from him .. Today I learn this

我爱你那么多 --萧亚轩

我爱你那么多/萧亚轩



A beautiful sad song.. If I do ever have a choice, I rather I am the one being love deeply more than i love the other party.Cos it hurts.

Anyway I know know who love me deeply more .. Jesus ye. hahah

试过爱一个人吗? 是甜蜜的还好,最槽就是痛苦的.......